evelyn amadea. make moments last

2010-05-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

I just wanted to go on a trip. Probably the last one with her.

Elise pre- & post-CNY :)!:

2010-03-03T02:09:00.051+08:00

Watched the last episode of Autumn's Concerto, GOSH NICEEE. Mishio, mishio~ And also the last episode of K.O.3anguo ^^ Sigh. Tomorrow have to report for work and Friday is Doomsday, results coming out. Alleluia. Hopefully will not have to retake but chances are.. :S

Currently watching Queen Seon Deok but it gets confusing if you miss an episode, their plot's fast and closely packed so it isn't draggy like most drama serials. Today while waiting for the train home, saw Agneta and she said it's a tragedy. Oh man. After Hong Gil Dong, my heart cannot take another tragedy. On top of A level results somemore. GOD, SAVEE MEEE~

Met DK and Mel for 3 consecutive days, Friday for classes, Saturday for NATAS Fair and Sunday with Zanne for Body World Exhibition. THEY REALLY USE REAL HUMAN BODIES. Oh craaap. *covers eyes* -peep-

Anyway I should go back to sleep soon, need to chiong the Leaning Tower of Papers stacking up on my office desk. Tskk. Here's some pictures of Elise, pre-CNY and post-CNY :) CNY meaning Eve of CNY to the 2nd day. CNY pictures will be posted in the next entry, it's A LOT.

20th Century Boys 3

2010-02-10T08:51:00.005+08:00

Buddy Buddies saved me from further decomposing yesterday :) Went out with them at night. Like whoohoo. Rarely can go out at night since young and especially now that my neighbourhood's super unsafe. My void deck is a hot spot for Chinese and Indian gangstas plus now there's the lift upgrading works ongoing. Oh yaa I heard from Mummy that some students from yckss were rowdy then one boy's eye was injured and bleeding. OH EM GEE. Anyway special thanks to my parents who let me out and didn't call me (or forgot to call me) even after midnight ^^ and Porcky for walking me home. Shey shey you barry machi :)

The song that was very outstanding in the 3rd part of the movie. I forgot Endo Kenji sang this in the first movie. Watched the first movie like.. 2 years ago. Cant find any version with full translation yet :S

Reached home like close to 1am. Cos the movie started at 9pm and lasted for 2 hrs 40 mins. Gosh. Lucky my last bus is 1am. Spent the night watching 3 eps of Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. KAME & TEGOSHI! When the 4 boys in the drama were introduced, kind of had the feeling of F4. Especially one with the brewing tea skills and family background. Another who flirts.

Oh nooo. I facebooked for a while and surprisingly saw Mama :O Quit his job alrd after earning $1300. Walao. Anyway went to view other people's pages. Gosh, much as I wouldn't like to admit but I kind of miss (*drum rolls* new name!) FABEN! Took a look at Ben's "glasgow" album and Europe's more western-y than Australia. So now I got this sudden feeling and excitement over the thought of going to a Western country with Hamsters. A wild and random and OMG thought. I think we'll play Truth and Dare on the streets and dare the loser to peck a foreigner on the cheek or something. WE ARE CAPABLE OF THINKING UP WORSE DARES. And Fabian will attempt his horizontal stunts on every lamp post that he can find or he'll pose each statue that he comes across. There'll be a distinctive madwoman laughter - Becca, and Ben will mimick her :) Then Junyi and I will busy ourselves camwhoring 360 degrees for every step we take. HAHAHAA. What happened to the Macau trip ahh?? And Sentosa. I think Sentosa trip's failure is cos of me. :S or more like.. that horrible job. Urgh I don't want to remember. Thanks.

Now is 11 January 2010 11am :) It's 2 hours past my usual sleeping time of 9am :) But I got to keep awake so that I will be able to prepare and leave the house in time to see the Chinese physician at 2pm. Injured my left knee before I went Australia. 3 months already and my parents havent brought me to cure it. Biased lehh. K I shall learn from Lindo Jong and bite back my tongue. Reunion dinner plans are kind of messed up, Daddy luh, last minute. Tskk. Need to call restaurants too. Haiyo. Hope after CNY my luck will return. Please Please Please, Lady Luck, I need you. Bai Tuo Ni!!

Roy Leh Sanae Rai!

2010-02-08T05:41:00.004+08:00

Hello world! After days of slacking at home, I'm at the stage of decomposing. Hahaa! Eww. Have been spending time watching dramas as expected and TAY DK, I WATCHED 50 EPS OF 3ANGUO! Whoo. Waiting for next week's ep to air.

Oh yaa, I tell you something unbelievable. As you know, I watch most korean dramas and a few japanese ones but recently I watched a Thai drama O.O Cannot believe it right! But the male and female leads married other people last year at around the same time. Wasted~ Wish they could be together.

On Monday, Jie Jie's friend's father told us that they don't want to let Whistle stay with them anymore. For the past month, Daddy and Jie Jie weren't on very good terms since Jie wants to keep Whistle in the office but it's quite unreasonable too, Daddy's office is for commercial purposes, to keep a dog in the office.. the image of the company.. well, the professionalism is reduced I guess. But Daddy compromised and let Whistle roam the 2nd hall. 3 weeks later, Whistle was chased away. At least I had that feeling. Tuesday morning we brought him to stay permanently at the office and Jie's friend's family super mean, they didn't even feed Whistle his breakfast. (They have another dog staying with Whistle)

Yupp so life's a dread again cos Whistle's ultra sensitive now being abandoned.. thrice? So he gets possessive of his bowl and shreds the newspapers to eat. Then he gets super fierce when we go near the fence. Haiyo. Damn scary please. Theory created: If I get bitten, he'll get beaten. Rhymes :) Am thinking of sterilizing him. Maybe he won't be so fierce thereafter. And send him to obedience classes. But Daddy seems frustrated and wants to wash his hands off Whistle. Hopefully he won't think of sending Whistle to SPCA, I think they'll just put him to sleep. Like eternal sleep. And Daddy gave Whistle 2 weeks to stay at the office. After that he must go. So within this 2 weeks we must think of a plan. GAHHH.

Alright. Spent the night packing. Muahaa. Even packed the shoe cabinet. Threw away my Charles & Keith white heels :'( My whole life's first ever pair of heels I bought in P5 to wear for the Christmas Choir. And guess wad? When I was in P5, my shoe size was already.. NINE. Wasehh. Jialat.

Quit! :)

2010-01-28T01:53:00.003+08:00

Listening to Seunggi makes me feel a lot a lot better. For some time now, I forgot the meaning of carefree. Probably it's what we call moving from innocence to experienced.

Mini reflection: I think once I like or love something I'll love it for a very long time.

Left my job after 2 weeks + 5 working days notice :) Thank God. But will be rotting at home. Shall help my dad out but still most of the time decomposing laa. After that awful work experience (okay, to me was rather awful) I started to cherish what I have and have become grateful of the support given to me by others.

I thought deeply about who I am and came up with many negative descriptions of myself. Criticism to make myself reflect then improve to be a better person. Feedback from others: Take things to heart, sensitive, emotional, easily affected. I reflected and acknowledge these problems of mine. Plus I feel I'm too well-protected and sheltered by my family. Am grateful to my family who have not laughed at me for tearing home every day and have sincerely given me advice on my situation. Even though they each have their own problems at work and we have problems working out a good family relation but all of them did all they can to help me. This made me feel very.. touched. :)

My group of classmates aka Hamsters(?) too. I still remember what Fabian said on the night we sent Ben off at the airport. "You can earn this much but what about your happiness?" Like W-O-W. Answer: Negative value. My family too, cares more for my happiness than the money I earn. I like this. I love them. No point staying on and being so bitter everyday. Money is important but it's not everything in my world.

Back to watching my shows but the recent dramas are a little blehh. Just finished watching 3 eps of a Korean variety show One Night Two Days and Episode 52 was touching at the end. Made me think back of the Batam kids, my Aris and Goong Goong and all the little kids who chased after me calling me their Goong Goong Ka. Gosh I really miss them and the kind of carefree days spent together. They have so little on the material aspect but so much in soul.

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New Year resolution for a brand new me. Targetting at my weaknesses and analysing feedback and criticisms, best solution is LEARN TO LET GO. Some things like BBQ Pork will expire and decay after some time so must throw away and cannot be too emotional over trivial things. For greater things, Evelyn Chen, you better be more rational hor. Or I HOOT YOU.

Alright, reflection completed. I must put in more effort to be hardworking too, cannot be so lazy every day or I'll rot at a faster rate. Oh myy.

Scars.

2010-01-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

Scars (Stronger For Life)

Just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don't want to hear them say
"You're no good at this"

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Drowning in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I'm meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger

Scars make us stronger for life

BAD day at work.

2010-01-13T22:48:00.011+08:00

Today was a super bad day. From in the morning when my rubber band broke, I should have known it was a bad omen. Not that I'm superstitious but taking Literature makes you more sensitive to metaphors and signs. In my case, my first job experience would be a mix of a thriller, horror, gore and especially tragedy.

Thriller for the heart-pounding pressure we feel during work everyday, the need to close a deal before lunch time. Horror for the constant fear that we missed out any information or said something ambiguous that the customers may challenge us with or even challenge us to court. Simply anything can land us in a legal case. Gore for the feeling I have of work everyday, that disgust and dread, the palms-over-eyes everytime a new contact list comes then Horror once more when it's a foreigner's list. Tragedy encompasses all the "If only"s, "I should have", "Why is it like this" and especially "I cannot take it anymore but I must go on".

I don't know why I must hang on so tightly for this job. I said I would respect the job and I really tried but I lost all due respect in a day. Like seriously. If I'm to be treated like that, even if I get paid $10 per hour it's freaking pittance to me. Pride more impt and principles most. Yupp.

Today is a winding road, that's taken me to places that I didn't want to go~

Was at a loss today after work. On the sign out book was penned an indirect humiliation and injust towards me. At the moment I only had one thought. Leave the place first. Even though Kangaroo asked me to confront Supervisor but I was so weak and afraid and affected that I only wanted to run away. Shiat. I really really hate this side of myself.

Contacted a few of my closest friends and oh my tian, Tay DK super xie xie ni oh! While I sat by the road and cried, I was talking to you neh! Malu cos of crying by the road but at least I busied myself with tlking on the phone :) Cried for like over an hour(?!) Then on the bendy bus super a lot of people stared at me. Gosh, must have been very obvious that I cried.

Then from opposite AMK Library I walked home along the main road cos the park isn't brightly lit and it was close to 9pm already. Met this two boys in skinny jeans who got nothing better to do in life. They're gangsters I think. Tattooes and cigarettes? Sashay down the pavement in their classic Ah Beng style then try to disturb me. Wts. Cry so what mans~ So I stared at them then they did their "Wah I so scared" as expected but I just walked on lo. Are you awed by the audacious Evelyn Chen? :)

Went home and Jie was on the sofa watching tv. She took leave since she lost her voice. Took a long warm bath to soothe my tensed nerves. Then answered Pig's call. Wahh she super ji dong on the phone and her voice is super high-pitched mans. She's auto loudspeaker even if you're on handset mode. Nice description :) Discussed about tomorrow's Konfrontasi.

Am so touched by all my friends' support. Plus my family. Wahh unity in a long while O.O Rare case. Gor Gor sent me an email for some temporary staff application. Dasao asked me how work was and listened although Elise is hospitlaised but she still spared some time for me. Daddy penned a resignation letter for me to type out. Mummy says I can always find another job, what matters is that I like the job and am happy. Jie Jie is the best, normally she doesn't talk much to me then Mummy will relay news to her but today she asked why I cried then when I teared, gave me the whole tissue packet to use. Plus she asked her friend to get us milkshakes and tarts. Important thing is, she requested for my share wor! And she told me a secret :) Nobaddy else knows :) Makes me feel closer to her ^^

WHERE ARE THOSE HAPPY DAYS,
THEY SEEM SO FAR AWAY.

Tomorrow is drama day. Gotta confront Supervisor. And will not be swayed into working further at the company. Even though I've grown to like my fellow colleagues. Those bimboes may be bimbotic at first but they'll warm up to you after some time. Just when I'm starting to blend in with everyone, I gotta detach myself from them. Today I was moved to Room 3. Room 3 is really happening. Super funny. I like the colleagues but not the work itself.

1st week of 1st job

2010-01-10T23:11:00.008+08:00

This video reminded me of my buddy buddies :) Was so blessed that Zanne's birthday was on Sat. Really looked forward to the end of work. That's the first day I left work feeling more energetic than ever :)

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, OUR HEI MEI REN!

I will rmb to upload the pics soon :D HEH. Was watching 3anguo during the weekends hoping it'll lighten my heavy heart and it did. Watch on, especially behind the director's cut! Speaking in dialect was super funny. (if you understand dialect.. There's mandarin translation too)

Yupp finally the weekend arrived. Been counting down the days, hours, minutes, seconds to 2pm on Saturday. Every single day I live to hear the "Okay Room 2, last call". Pathetic life I'm living right, I know.

Truth be told, the first day of work (minus training and lunch) had only 4 hours and I was already dreading it. This si baldie (not bald but balding) stood behind me and eavesdropped on my conversation. Although I closed a deal, I got scolded for the way I phrased my words. My entire life's very first day of work ended very discouragingly. So after I got off the bus at AMK Drive-Thru I had to walk 10 mins to get home. During that 10 mins I was super upset and dripped tears. Sigh.

Next day I believe Baldie tattletailed to Supervisor. Cos Supervisor went to listen to the recording of my conversation with my customer. And then he gathered the trainees in conference room and sat down with a whole list of red ink. My mistakes. So you see, even though I closed a deal, I'll still get scolded. Thank youu very much indeed. Got super affected when I went back to my Room 2 and teared a little. Bit my tongue and tried not to cry. Breathed hard and hed my breath several times. Overcame it :) Near the end of the day, called a customer and her name would be one I would NEVER EVER FORGET. BWSC.

This woman got irritated by the calls from our company cos she extended contract before Christmas and she was hounded by our calls even after that. Actually if I'm her I'd be pissed too. But not to this extent. Took my full name and place where I worked. I believe she lodged a complaint against me. The morning after, Supervisor said they received a complaint against Someone. At that time I believed Supervisor was kind and understanding, protecting a small trainee's reputation and feelings that's why he didn't divulge the name.

And he taught us to respect the job.
I really did put in effort to respect the job and to respect him.
I will stay on the job, I shall have faith that if others can do it, I can too.
They can pull through weeks, I can pull through the weeks too :) FIGHTING!

Slogan for the week: YOU WANT MONEY OR LIFE.
If you want money, don't be so affected and run after the money cold-heartedly.
If you want life, don't shorten your lifespan by staying on, quit now!

HAPPY NEW 2010!!

2010-01-05T04:01:00.000+08:00

G'day, mate.
HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2010!

Kyuhyun is just as cute and comical as ever ^^

2010 reminds me of.. PERFECT 10. 10 points upon 10 points! *2PM's song plays in head*
Mel gave me 2 YouTube links yesterday and 2PM's rendition of Abracadabra is JUST GROSS but funny. Jo Kwon (in pink jacket) is OH EM GEE *covers eyes and slams laptop screen down*

2PM's parody of "You're Beautiful". watch it Watch It WATCH IT!!

NICKHUN IS LOVE! Especially after he found out Wooyoung (Go MiNam) was a guy he INSISTED he was a girl LOL! see 09:25! Love the songs :) And the ending! HILARIOUS.

Tomorrow I'm going to start work!! Oh man, scaryy. Most of the people I'm working with comes from the same AJ class. Goshh. Met some people who are working for a rival company today LOL. Daryl, Junfeng, Mama. From the way they describe their job, I got more worried. Aaah. And Michelle said after a few days will be sian. Must have LOTS of patience and a VERY good temper. Hopefully will not sprout any vulgarities :S but am not such a person so.. should be able to control??

"Rival company" is CJ dominated while mine's AJ dominated. Feel like hopping over hearing all the benefits, free shuttle bus provided by the company to Jurong from Bishan, 2 weekdays for off days per week, free flow of coffee or tea and a vending machine that sells canned drinks for 50 cents. Wow. And compared to my ulu workplace.. T^T

But then my company allows me to wear jeans and shirt for work on weekdays and shorts on weekends while "Rival" requires the guys to wear formal attire, shirt and pants like office staff. Wonder what the girls have to wear. And my working hours are more humane, 10am to 6pm for weekdays. (Even though I need about 2 hours of travelling time there and vice versa, 30 mins to wait for bus and to reach AMK mrt, 40 - 45 mins to take the train from AMK to Bugis, 20 - 30 mins to walk to the building.)

GAHHHHHHH. I guess everything has their pros and cons. Have to commit for 3 months. Alright, when life throws sour lemons at you, YOU SQUASH THEM INTO LEMON JUICE. (or was it lemonade??) Haiya same la same laa. I hope I will be able to endure it all. Am already dreading lunch time, all the AJ people will talk amongst themselves then I shall play violin on my wrist in a corner or play PianoLite on my Iphone. SIGH.

Hope I'll be as enthusiastic as Heechul throughout the 3 months of work.
HE'S ENJOYING "GEE". :D

I say 'HEE', you say 'SICA'! 'HEE'! 'SICA'! 'HEE'! 'SICA'! Rmb Heechul's famous imitation of Jessica in Intimate Note? ^^

Hong Gil Dong OST "If" by Taeyeon. Her voice is really.. *awed*
Haven't finish watching the remaining 10 eps :( Watched a little on Ch 56 and OMG Yi Nok's grandpa died and her character changed from bubbly to vengeful. Goodness. Scared of the ending, my Da Sao said the characters died but Mel's sister said the three main characters lived. Wo bu yao tragic ending!! URGH, hate tragedies. Will pinch myself to stay awake to watch it after I come home from work. :)

Yes, am flooding my blog with videos but the photo uploads need a lot of effort and it's extremely time-consuming. I will upload soon! Or meet me online then I send the photos over? Would that be better??

Alright, tag my board to reply? I need to go off, find a notebook, pack my bag and think of what to wear and sleep. Waking at 7. Oh myy left 3 hours. Freak! Need to leave house by 8! Okay alright, see you! SMS ME, I lost all my contacts! (again)

Gg Australia!

2009-12-16T23:44:00.010+08:00

Lee Seung Gi!~ I'll listen to this song while I go overseas :) NICEE~

I FOUND MY MEMORY CARD!!! WHEEE~

Sigh I got no time to update about prom.

Aah. Went to Indonesia then couldn't go for Seoul'd Out. Heard the turnout was good :(
And LEE MINHO's COMING TO SINGAPORE ON 22ND DEC!
But I'll be overseas.. :( HOR.

Went out with Emo Fam minus Mama yesterday so we became Emo Orphans Part II. Part I was during prom. Can't wait to see the peeek-tures! It's all with Clas (since my camera's memory card.. T^T) Oh wells. Am going to buy another memory card tomorrow. It's such a waste, I've only used the card a few times and I lost it. *depressed* Rushed to Cathay on time and sat at Level 6 while waiting for the rest to meet me after lunch at Aston's. Walked right past Ah Pek Aloy without noticing him there Lol. Then he was staring for such a long time before I noticed him that he shook his head and sighed. Hahaa! Watched Princess and the Frog. SUPER NICE! The princess' singing was superb. And the ending was super smart!

Doesn't the mincing part remind you of the prince mincing all the mushrooms in the
Princess and the Frog? ^^ Ahh his eyes, Ippudda!

Went home and konked out from exhaustion. 4 nights with less than 12 hours of sleep. Just imagine. Am so sorry that I didnt answer the calls and reply the smses! Was asleep :S Went for quick quick dinner with Gabe and Amanda. Gabe was super high, seriously. Keep attacking me the way DK does, just that DK uses action, Gabe uses questions. SIGH.

Haven't bought birthday present for Jie Jie. I'm so gonna diee. Oh yaa I'm going Dreamworld and Movieworld! Lol, what's the diff? Movieworld got looney tunes then dreamworld?? Aah I scared my memory card not enough. I used 3.66GB of it for my 2 days trip in Indonesia. This one's a week neh. HOR.

Savings depleting and becoming a debt :'( FRIENDS, whatever I buy for you all is from my savings so must cherish it even if it may be a little lacking or disappointing k! I scared I don't have enough money. Main purpose is to buy shoes for myself. Since my feet size is sooooo big. :(

Videos to help you kill some time (:
Yunho's super animated! He tells his story in such an interesting way.

Lol at his "dying" expression!

Bye bye, my dearest dearest friend friend ♥

Memory card, where are you!

2009-12-16T02:11:00.002+08:00

The wildest things keep happening to me these few days.

Came back then the next day was supposed to meet buddy buddies but I slept at 7am so I slept past the supposed meeting time. 10am at Ang Mo Kio. When Zanne called my house it was 10.25am and the movie's 11am. It was suuuuch a relief when Daddy came home. Took a lift to AMK Hub and happily called Mel to tell her I reached AMK Hub and I'm going up the escalators. Then Mel said that they are at Cineleisure. O.O!! Thought it was a prank then called DK. The first thing when DK answered the call was to ask if I reached Cine. Then my brain went on red alert. Plus DK was not meeting us for the movie, only for lunch. Went on the train and it was like.. 10.50? From Somerset I still had to walk to Cine :'( So by the time I reached I missed like 20 mins of the show :'(

When I came back, I slept for a few hours and decided to copy the photos from my camera's memory card to my computer. Took a lot of videos of the children caroling and many many nice pictures because the place was so beautiful. But I couldn't find my memory card.

Before I slept at 7am, Daddy received a call from someone to ask if he sent the email. At that time my laptop was on the table outside with my memory card inserted at the corner. Told him freaking many times not to touch my laptop and when he needed my help the ask me to go outside and help him. But he SUPER ITCHY HAND. SUPER DO THINGS HIS OWN WAY. Think he's always in the right. Damn angry. He took the plug out and moved the whole laptop plus wires into the room. Then the internet had to be set again. Saw that the memory card was still intact. Was quite agitated cos I told him SO MANY TIMES not to touch it and he did it. This kind of attitude, don't care lor, my words aren't significant right. Then he dare to shout at me and push my laptop saying if I dont want to help him he can drive to office and use his computer there and that he got pride. It's not about pride please. It's about LISTENING TO INSTRUCTIONS. I think it's when he pushed my laptop that my memory card came out. In super big trouble now. Supposed to send the photos to the coordinator for the trip cos he couldn't take photos. Damn it.

Super worried and depressed. Until now I still can't find my memory card. All my phitis are still inside lehh. The fabian-junyi outing, remaining Sakae feast, visiting Whistle, prom and my trip to Indonesia plus all the videos. Tomorrow I'm going overseas again. Without a memory card take what freaking photos. Mood for the trip is gone. Sucks.

Byee! + Trip to Kuching last year

2009-12-12T05:09:00.000+08:00

A nice nice song I heart! This is my blog song too. In case it gets choppy.. this is a backup plan (:

Junyi, the pics you requested for are in my 3rd post (see below). I don't know why my post became arranged like that. Anyway, you can see the pics can alrd. Left a few more to upload.

Alrighty, I'm off for my mission trip. Hopefully everything will be alright and BOOMZ. oh no okay I take boomz back. Don't wanna have any explosions. TOUCH WOOD! Will be back soon!

I realised I didn't update on my trip to Sarawak last year so I tracked back one of the drafts I saved and here's some beautiful beautiful pics I took. Super nice. Even I'm amazed at my skills. Probably tikamed them. Take a look :) Don't be too shocked and DON'T KOPE. tskkk. Terima Kasih!

ARTISTIC RIGHT :)
I can be a photographer! :D :D :D

Before that, time now's 5.30. Supposed to leave at 6. OH MY GEE GEE FIED.
K pack bag pack bag. Adieu!

Birthday Celebs by Buddy Buddies ^^

2009-12-12T03:20:00.000+08:00

I seriously love this acoustic version of "I Wish"/"I Hope"! Lyrics are meaningful :)
I think you'll need to turn your volume higher. JEREMYY!! ^^

Firstly, I must update on the buddy buddies outing. Aaah. Ever since Emo Fam first planned a surprise for my birthday last year, I've felt cheated for every birthday. Hahahaa. I mean SURPRISED. Let's start with an extract from Zanne's blog :)

"finally, we repaid e 3mth bday loan to e 3 of them.
dk n me met super early k.
n we baked pasta! =D super delicious i think
n made tuna sandwich.
our original plan was to go to sentosa n have a picnic-like day.
but it was all foiled. haha.
firstly, everyone was late.
n er mel ate lunch before meeting us coz we dint say that we made lunch, only that we'd meet to have lunch
n e sun was so scorching hot n we all dint wna get black or be out in e sun.
haha so in e end, we picnicked at vivo. lol.
abit embarrassing but well, its ok if u do such stuff with friends. =)
hope they enjoyed e food =)
n then we walked about aimlessly. shopping. haha."

Our Self-Cam! (purposely cut away DK ^^)
But we got attacked...

By DK's Ru Lai Shen Zhang!

Quick! Send this for palm reading! Lol~

Went to Vivo's Candy Empire while waiting for Mel and Duck and we realised most of the chocolates sold there are from Australia. Hahahaa AND I'M GOING THERE~ Shall not buy anything back. Heh hehh. Ehh I'll seriously go bankrupt wor.

Felt quite nice cos I thought of my class while shopping around Candy Empire. Wanted to buy a parting gift for them. Saw chocolates on offer 3 boxes for $10 but then decided shall not buy them. Luckily I didn't too cos on prom night there was "door" gift on our seats - Chocolates from Frey! :) Love that brand.

After waiting for a loooooooooong time for last person Mel to arrive, by then I found out Zanne and DK tricked us about the Sentosa trip. =.=" To think I was so hopeful and happily packing my whole bag of clothes T^T

Ended up sitting on the floor. It's quite weird and a little lang bei (pathetic)~ take a look at the surroundings~~

Us hiding in a corner and the foodcourt behind us~

Food prepared by Zanne and DK :)
DOUBLE SERVING

Oh yaa there's 2 triangles of tuna sandwich left in my fridge!

*glares*

keke.

*grin*

Walked around and settled down at Coffee Bean :) Bought a super nice Peppermint Chocolate smth. Dk gave her name and the waiter wrote it down to be.. WAY. HAHAHAHAA!! ^^

Taken by DK who thought I wanted to take a pic of the 2 guys in the posters

But actually I wanted a pic of our reflection laa =.="
CAN YOU SEE US??

I blocked my own reflection with the camera~ zzZ.

HOR, zhuai oh!

Chocolate cake! ^^

This nice pic is taken by ME :)

MY PEPPERMINT!
Which was later snatched and eaten by Duck
To my utmost shock and dismay

MYSTERY WOMAN
Looks like those figures on television who give an account of their story but their image is a shadow/blurred and their names are changed. Hahahaa!

Nice effect right!
Who's the awesome photographer?~
HIA HIAA.

The one who snatched and grabbed and ate my peppermint.

She seems normal but she's not.

Thief of peppermint shall live in shame and guilt.

SEE! STEAL MY PEPPERMINT. evidence! sigh.

Due to my depressing memory of my peppermint being snatched, I have no more energy left to continue blogging this post. Sigh. I can only shake my head and SIGH. Because of Duck, now I am nomu nomu chincha BICHIN seyo. Aaah, OMONA. Ottokae ottokae?!

Tmr I'll be off to Balai, adieu adieu adieu :) Looking forward to 14th Dec oh! ^^
IS DUCK COMING ALONG?! OMG. *pulls hair*

Sakae buffet!

2009-12-11T23:12:00.102+08:00

Time now is 4.53am. I have to stop uploading. Haven't packed my bag yet and have to leave the house early for the 7am ferry. Don't think I can sleep alrd. :( Junyi, when I come back then upload the remaining pics. Left a few. Haven't upload the previous outing too. Sorry.

Fabian with Becca's finger
Looks vulgar right!

Entitled "The one for me"
Hahahaa because Ben said he'll be Fabian's groom at his wedding!

CHA SOBA~
one strand of the noodles floating~

Kang Shim Jang! ^^

2009-12-10T00:32:00.003+08:00

The competition between singers in Korea to compete for a good time to release their albums

Kang Shim Jang Ep 1 Part 4
MEL WATCH 0:17 CLOSELY! GD pointing at you oh!~ And Boom-Dragon's rendition of Heartbreaker. GD nomu kyopta at the end :) But the ending's quality a little :S

Kang Shim Jang Ep 1 Part 5
Seung Ri's super sneaky and funny! Aaah, love all the magnaes. Especially Suju's ^^

This one isn't Big Bang but it touched me and made me cry. Double S Five Oh One's Kyu Jong~

A little excessively spamming videos. Hahahaa. Will be away for a while so cannot update my blog that frequently. Watch it while I'm away and you're bored :D Last year while BBQ went overseas, I super missed BBQ. So everyday while he was away, I would visit his blog and listen to the song in the post. Then it was more terrible. Lol. So likewise before I go, I'll like to find a song that people will miss me by while I'm away :)

dec updates!

2009-12-09T03:20:00.014+08:00

After my Korean drama craze, I have shifted momentarily to watch Japanese and Taiwanese dramas :) Watched Mr Brain in a day and was nearly brain dead :S When Daddy came to pick me and Junyi home after prom, I was telling Junyi about the drama and shocked that Junyi doesn't know who Takuya Kimura is. Named her a few of his dramas like Long Vacation, Love Generation, Engine, Pride, Good Luck and Change. But she only heard of his name in chinese. Junyi, this is the guy I was talking about:

SIZZLING HOT STUFF RIGHT.
But in Mr Brain, his wrinkles are pretty obvious and this guy's taken..

By Shinzuka Kudo or is she Shinzoka??
I remember they got 2 daughters laa

So cute hoh!

Oh yaa he's a member of the famous famous SMAP as well

Dunno wad other Taiwanese dramas are nice to watch. All else didn't seem appealing to me~
Watched the first 6 episodes of a new show by Xiao Zhu (Peiming! Xiao Zhu's new show!) and Rainie Yang called Hi My Sweetheart (海派甜心). Ep 7's this Sunday. Sigh. The show's funny but the hairstyle for the males are a bit.. Eeyer. Especially Lee Wei's.. his is ZOMG. Only a 3 second shadow of him in high school that hairstyle's nice.

I'm starting to worry about the trip to Balai again. :S Remember I said my auntie and her son will accompany us there? Now they won't be going with us. Because Dua Pek suffered a mild stroke and extra care has been requested so Dua Um and Uncle (actually my cousin but due to the vast difference in age~ uncle) will be staying in Singapore. Which means Daddy Mummy and I will be going with total strangers. O.O

Quite sad, Dua Pek doesn't remember me at all when I visited him. Didn't watch the fireworks at Vivo and visited him at TTSH. Daddy drove Mummy and I there so in the car I was rehearsing what I would say to Dua Pek in dialect.

When I was young Daddy's side of the family was super rich. Dua Pek would drive me around in his Mercedez and if I'm obedient, he'll let me sit on his lap while he drove. For the past Chinese New Years since I can remember, he'll ask if I remember tugging at his pants with one hand and pointing at his car with the other saying "Dua Pek wa su ka zey le aye qia" (Dua Pek I like sitting in your car). Then he'll keep comparing my height as a toddler and during CNY each year. Actually I don't remember I did such stuff and am shocked that as a toddler I can speak dialect but I saw a photo of me sitting on his white Merz before so maybe I did like cars. But now he can't even recognise me. T^T

Dua Pek suffered a fall the same way as Gong Gong did. And also Ma Ma. But if you know my family's miracle story, you'll know that Ma Ma was expected not to survive past the next 48 hours but she survived for more than a year. Dua Pek haven't waited for me to graduate University and earn enough money to buy a Mercedez to bring him around yet. He cant just leave. I need to achieve those first.

Daddy's side of the family's really weird. The age gaps are seriously too far off. I'm the youngest in my generation so Dua Pek's grandchild is my "nephew" (cousin's son). He's supposed to call me Yi Yi since my rank in the hierarchy is higher but then Ma Ma gave me the family nickname Mei Mei and I'm younger than my nephew so instead of him being respectful to me being of higher rank, I must be respectful to him being older. WAHH. Such a weird and contradicting relationship. Forget it, we friend friend laa.

Aaah. I'm so confused I forgot about worrying for my trip. Molla Molla Mollaaa!!~~

Me likes Lee Seung Gi! After watching Shining Inheritance and a few episodes of 1D2N :) Am trying to find subbed episodes of Kang Shim Jang :S First ep's fully subbed and the main guests are Big Bang's GDragon and Seung Ri! Super funny to the max. Love them all. See next post for the Big Bang cuts ^^ MEL DONT XIN HUA NU FANG. CONTROL. hahahaa!

You're Beautiful & Shining Inheritance

2009-12-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

Sigh I'm done watching You're Beautiful and it was really beautiful.
Now I've got nothing to look forward to :( Been waiting for Wednesdays and Thursdays to watch the un-subbed version on Youtube then the subbed versions on Thurdays and Fridays. Yes, I'm crazy over the show to this extent ^^ To Mel, you can have Shinwoo, Tae Kyung's mine! :) Aaah. Seriously nothing to look forward to anymore :(

And I've watched Shining Inheritance! Seung gi's first lead role! But at the start I like Jun Se Oppa's character. First time liking the second male lead. At the end Seung gi's funnier :) Drama's a little draggy at times, but it got me hooked to finish 28 episodes in 3 days. :O

Lee Seung Gi's super funny and kyopta!! ^^

Shining Inheritance Ep 26 part 5 of 7: Sun Woo Hwan and Go Eun Sung's date! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8otPYNEiLEs Aaah they're seriously damn cute!! ^^

Shining Inheritance Ep 28 part 6 of 7: Sun Woo Hwan and Eun Woo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZBTrLj0T-Q 3:12-5:14!!

And I've learnt many many moral lessons from this drama:
"Anyone normal has a sense of sympathy, but compassion is a little different. If sympathy is feeling pity for somebody, compassion is not being able to turn around and leave that person."

"Anyone can look at a poor person and say "Man, I feel bad for them" but doesn't reach out a helping hand. A compassionate person does. It's like the story in the Bible about the widow giving her coin. It's not that she gave me her leftovers, but that she shared her hunger with me."

So from now on I shall aim to be a compassionate person and help those who are really really in need. Shall not dread going to Balai and offer as much help as I can to the poor and the elderly. ASA, FIGHTING!! Q(^.^Q)

Haruma Miura & overseas updates

2009-11-30T15:18:00.008+08:00

이지형 (EZ Hyoung) - 산책 (a walk)

Me like this singer :)

But maybe not really this song.
Anyway the purpose of this video is..
Buddy buddies! Do you recognise the male lead for this movie??

YES, IT'S DK'S FAVOURITE DRUG DEALER! Lol.
Haruma Miura's the name :) Ahhh I wanna watch Gokusen again.
It's super nice watching Gokusen with close close friends :)
Duty, loyalty and "my precious students"~

Watched 2012 as well and might be watching it for a second time with my family. Aaah but I bet they won't understand the movie then I'd have to narrate everything again. :S Looking forward to more and more outings :D But need to save more money too :( Been a splurge. Now facing Crisis Month. And those Christmas presents. GAHHHHH.

PLEASE MAKE THIS HAPPEN. *wishes*

So shall make a tough decision. I shall owe everyone Christmas presents til next year. HAHAHAHAA. If not when I go overseas I'd have to eat sand and drink sea water lehh :(

And by the way, realised I'm not going Bali but BALAI(?)
One of the 13,600 islands in Indonesia. Reaction to this? Refer to picture below.

Balai's supposedly bigger than Batam but more unknown. Following some people from the Nativity church to do mission work there. And I initially thought I was going there to shop. Sigh, what a drastic difference. Oh wells, shall make the most out of it :) Those whom I know are my parents, my auntie who always teases me and her son my cousin who's 40++ (the one whose son my nephew married at 22 and has a daughter making me a grand auntie). The rest, I don't know them~ And worse still, there's a night trail leading to a dilapidated elderly home. Wahh hopefully my night blindness will improve.

Yep looking forward to doing mission work. Kind of liked the OCIP my class did last year :) But at least I had a whole class of people whom I know to accompany me.

OHH! DK got her H1N1 vaccination already. I need to get mine done soon :( I HAAATEEE jabs, worse than DK's bony finger poking my arm. And I HAAATEEE medication, can't seem to swallow them.

Now am on medication cos of my sensitive skin and the rash around my eye area. Hmpf. But my skin doctor's effective and is a professional in his field so shall trust him.

MY FACE :(

Hopefully it'll become better and recover soon to become..

*SHINE SHINE* ~blings and dazzles~
AHAHAA, not his face please~
But this photo's so funny, he looks so retarded being caught on candid camera

Alright I shall update with photos next time on my seafood feast and day out with buddy buddies 2/3 :) There's still the fab-jun outing to update on. And photos of my overweight niece too~

I shall provide some candy for your eyes :)

Til next time!~

P.S. Tae Kyung's very much similar to me! :D Night blindness and allergy to prawns!

Aaah!

2009-11-19T22:42:00.003+08:00

Me went for church yesterday night cos my church has this thing called triduum, 3 consecutive days before the actual feast day there would be mass every night. Yesterday's speaker was Fr J.J. and his homily was super entertaining. Fr Yim said Fr J.J.'s nickname was Just Joking but after he became a priest it was changed to Just Jesus.

During the mass there was some scary disturbances. Through the mic were some angry screams but we don't know where the sound came from. The screaming was really scary, like some man being restricted to do something and held back by other people so he screamed with frustration. Seemed to me to be like that. But I didnt see any man being like that. The screaming lasted for like 2-3 minutes. :S Kaypoh mummy stood up from her seat to see the altar area more clearly then I felt so paiseh and swatted her hand to sit down and don't be so kaypoh. Wahh then she swatted me back saying somebody might be dying. Lol. Her imagination's wilder than mine.

After mass went to kope some beehoon catered by the church for the triduum :) Before exams I can't really stomach any meals so after Econs I was super hungry. The only thing I ate in the whole day was the Ddukbokki I bought from AMK Hub on my way home and the auntie super stingy luh! :( Daddy picked us home while Mummy and I started acting out all the things that happened during mass although when I imitated the screams it seemed more like roaring. Lol. I wonder what happened. Hope that guy's fine, he sounded like he was in immense pain/frustration. Scaryy.

TOMORROW'S THE LAST PAPER FOR A LEVELS :)
Hopefully it'll turn out okay and manageable.

Heechul cried so hard that it made me tear-eyed too.

I have so many plans after "A"s!
1) Buy bigger memory card for camera
2) Make passport since it expired
3) Summer clothes + super good sunblock
4) Meet up with buddy buddies after their As
5) Celebrate my long belated birthday with buddy buddies

(I shall look forward to listening to the process of DK and Zanne putting in sincerity and effort to celebrate 3 birthdays at once. Are you both going to bake something again? Baker Girl is here~ Zanne got cookies, DK got cake. Maybe we'll get.. muffins? roti prata? brownie. carrot cake. egg tart. MOONCAKE?!) Don't buy bikini again (>.<)

6) Shun bian collect my bags! :)
7) Emo Fam outing?? We have like 5 birthdays to celebrate. Plus sister-in-law and baby's I think 7. If twins then 8. Triplets? 9. omg. soccer team. 11+5+1 = 17. FREAK LAA.
8) Super fast shopping for Prom night dress (wahh I seriously dread it.)
9) Go sight-seeing and draw/paint/take photos
10) Repay the birthdays I owe for the early babies: Daryl, Amanda, Ajusshi
11) CHOOSE NEW HANDPHONE! :)

As you can see, I have no plans to exercise and slim down for Prom. Lol.
And I need to work to earn money first then I can spend.
Saw this Super Junior shirt that's nice but dno how much yet. Got so encouraged by making my life's first online purchase for bags that I browsed the blog for idol merchandise. Wonder if they'll let me pay by cash. Now I know why my parents don't wanna give me a credit card. Sigh. I don't even have a POSB card! :( Never mind, my ATM machine's at home.

Okay okay. Getting too excited about after As. GET PAST TMR'S ECONS FIRST.

Fluuu~ :( :(

2009-11-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

Down with a very bad cold :(
Couldn't sleep the whole night since I'm sneezing the whole way~
Tomorrow's Lit and I only highlighted til Chapter 10 of Great Ex, OMG.
Hopefully they won't test minor characters if not I can jump into a river and drown alrd.

CHOO LING! Here's something my friend sent me to watch to cheer me up but I think you'll love it more LOL

Logged in here to thank the many many people who tried cheering me up
Firstly my buddy buddies. :) Wahh I can't wait to see Choo Ling, MY BAGS! ^^
Classmates, Becca who sent me a bible verse and Junyi a super long sms
Fabian(?) who called/smsed/msned through the whole of last week
Omma(?) who smsed the whole ystd, got my mind off discouraging matters
Daryl and Gabriel who must have been badmouthing me since they suddenly sent smses to me at the same time ystd night, tsk tskk.
Christine for spying my blog, just saw the tag :) :) YAA our ambitious APW overseas trip!

And my parents who must've hurt more than me because they have been so greatly disappointed and seeing me cry just made them more painful. For that I feel so bad that I cried so badly and twice in a week. For this week I mustn't cry or at least hide somewhere to cry first then go home smiling. Hopefully smiling. Sigh. I think JC life is bad. I don't remember being so weak during my Secondary school days. Hate this weak side of me. :( Chincha. Shiro!

Nonetheless there's no return so in the remaining time I have left I'll try to make the best out of it :) This weekend has been a tough one for me but letting my phone battery remain dead from fri night to sat night gave me a quiet time to sit and sort things out :) Apologies to those I replied late, Becca and Junyi, and I ignored Fabian (omg sorry laa!).

After this friday, I CAN BE FREEEEE~
I CAN BE FREEE FROM THIS PLACE~
(Corrinne May's Song "Free" ^^ Me heard it from Becca and me like it!)
Ahh. Suddenly remembered I need to prac singing "Magnificent"

Okay back to Othello. I'm loving the play all over again :)

A lvls.

2009-11-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

Today's maths paper was dreadfully terribly horrifying. Sucks.

Should have placed more emphasis on practising Paper Two
Should have paid more attention to Ms Lee
Should have moved on to other questions
Should have revised earlier
Should have been more self-aware of it all and corrected myself in time.

Disgustingly regretting all the "should haves" and all the "If only I"

Worst was when everyone came out beaming and excitedly discussed answers, saying the paper was easier than the first. Seemed like a transparent wall separating their relief from my depression that just kept getting worse. Feel like I've let my parents down. Ms Lee. Mr Yeo. Just the thought of my parents made me tear on the bus home.
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To my class girls, I wasn't pissed that you all were taking such a drag to collect CSE stuff and discuss matters, just that someone could have told me you all went to collect CSE. Was already so depressed when I came out from the exam hall then I felt extremely lost.

Then after repeatedly making so much noise to go home, everyone just either ignored me or shut me up. My internal struggle was already enough please. At that moment was so fed up and left. Walking out alone made me straighten some facts out, I have my own legs I don't have to wait for others to move and to follow other people's wishes. I am an individual. I don't have to keep compromising with others.
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Came home and bawled my eyes out. Like on Monday after the SEA History cooped myself in the toilet to wail. Only came out after my parents and Da Sao came knocking after an hour. But at least at that time I still had IH History as my hope.

Maths is all gone. Just like that.
I'm serously screwed.

Is there really a June paper? Sucks. I can never make it to Uni. And I have a niece in RJ who is the same age. Pressure from relatives. Dreading Chinese New Year already. How am I going to set a good example for my younger cousins. And to bring pride to my family. Maybe not pride. I'm not capable of that. Just as long as my parents don't lose face because of me. Plus Jie Jie who tried to lure me to do well, new handphone as birthday present, trip to Australia.

And my buddy buddies. Thanks for trying to encourage me even though my situation is really hopeless until you all don't know how else to encourage me. Even though you all moved to better schools, I'm thankful that you all didn't despise me and continue to keep our friendship. Really sincerely love you all a lot. Except Duck. Less love.

Here's a sms from Mel who after her difficult Chem paper still managed to console me for History and to encourage me for IH paper due 2 hours after the sms :)

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're taking seems all uphill,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar.

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I will spend today living in regret.
Thereafter I must find strength somehow to carry on.
When all else fails, have faith.
But my faith is wavering.

Dear God, I believe "There is nothing I cannot do in the One who strengthens me"
(courtesy of Sarah who sent an sms to me, thanks)
I place my hopes, my dreams, my regrets and my failures into Your hands.
Help me, Help me to make the cut. Please.

2 wks to As O.O

2009-10-25T17:52:00.002+08:00

The Behind-the-scenes of drama "You're Beautiful" parodies!

The person video-ing just zoomed in on Hongki =.=" Never mind, Hongki's funny too. trying to balance on heels. Hahahaa!

Parody on Roo'Ra's song! LOL.

This parody hasn't been aired yet, anticipating when it's gonna be broadcasted ^^
Yonghwa made me stunned. Suddenly so active in his green shirt lol. But Geun Suk is the bestest, he's crazily funny luh!

Okay laa last one last one :)
An old video of Eunhyuk and Sungmin :D :D :D

Eunhyuk: This summer I want to~
Sungmin: I want to go to the beach....
Eunhyuk: This summer I want to~
Sungmin: I want to go to the beach...
Eunhyuk: (annoyed smile) This summer I want to~~~
Sungmin: I want to go to the beach !!
Eunhyuk: (really annoyed smile) This summer i want to ~~~~~
Sungmin: Will you come to the beach with me ??
Eunhyuk: (really annoyed) This summer i MUST build a snow man !!

Will be going to airport to send my sister off to US. Hope she buys me something when she gets back *hopeful* But since she's flying there to work, maybe she won't have the time to shop :( New York and Connecticut. Me iz jealous~~ Pray that she'll return home safely, US is so scary please. And Jie Jie's dealing with terrorism issues. OMG. WO BU YAO. JIE JIE PLEASE BE SAFE AND SOUND.

Aaah. Need to rmb to bring camera :) Bringing Baby Elise to the airport since she's abandoned by Gor Gor and Da Sao who went for Kenny's wedding. Elise seriously looks like me when I was a baby. *stunned* Shall show you pics next time :)

Wheeeee!~ Shall drop by Terminal 3 and buy sweets and chocolates! Suddenly got reminded of times in class when Jarad or Ben will fish out something they bought from Candy Empire to eat. =.="

2 weeks to A levels. So screwed.

Dear God, I need Your Help. Please. Bai Tuo Ni. Really.

Be safe :)

2009-10-25T01:11:00.002+08:00

SNSD Genie Parody by A.N.Jell ^^

Hongki's actions and expressions are super funny! Plus he's the only guy in heels.
Geun Suk looks pretty as a girl o.O and since he puts in so much effort in dancing he's so kyopta!! :)

Saranghagi Ddaemooneh by Sungmin, backing vocals by Kyuhyun ^^

Couldn't really find the translations and romanization though :( *disappointed*

One must not have expectations that are too high, the higher the expectations, the more disappointed you'll be when they aren't met. Even though we know what the outcome would be but I still find myself expecting much much more. Aaah. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens.

Received a sms that I thought was very sweet. More of heartwarming :) Maybe I'd consider ending my messages like that once in a while. I'll skip the sms, ending is "Be safe, call me once you reach home so I won't worry" Wasehh. Thinking back, sounds stalkerish. Lol. Okay shall not use this to end my smses. Later other people freak out. But this person's a close friend of mine so I understand laa. Be safe, be safe, be safe. The sincerity of it all :) I like that. ^^

DBSK :(

2009-10-20T15:39:00.002+08:00

SM Entertainment Dream Concert!

Kyu's mike couldn't work at the start and the rest of the singers sang his lines for him :)

Did you realise DBSK isn't there??

Cos they have some lawsuit with their company over the income distribution so SM does not allow them to perform. Apparently, SM Entertainment has an affiliate company SM Japan and all of DBSK's income from Japan is divided for Avex their agency in Japan, SM Japan and most of the remaining goes to SM Entertainment based in Korea. Since 2004 til now, DBSK has only US$120,000 in income from Japan = US$2500 monthly for 5 people. SM Entertainment and SM Japn are the same company why should it earn double of what it's supposed to take.

Super shocked please. How can such management exist. Money suckers seriously. If the income divided by 5 people is so little then what would happen to SNSD with 9 girls and Super Junior with 13 boys. Madness. I don't want DBSK to get disbanded laa! AHNDWEN. SHIRO!

Reality Check.
Checked.

distracted

2009-10-19T13:31:00.008+08:00

Funny yet touching prank ^^

The VERY prepared kids who were confident of winning :) They planned so many strategies and laid so many traps! This is their planning and preparation video:

HOWEVER... when the real zombie came, LOL, chaos is unleashed.

Today seems boringg. Especially when there's no school. Didn't feel it over the weekend since my weekends are super packed with activities. Over the weekend, spent quality time with my family, went to the grave to visit grandmother Ma Ma and grandfather Gong Gong. While wiping their photos on the tablet, I complained to them how my daddy bullied me and told them to scold him Hahaa! Wonder if they'll really scold him in his dreams. HIA HIA. *devil horns growing*

Saw a lizard?? Some lizard that would attack at 12pm. LOL I still think it's funny that when it attacks at 12pm it is lethal but at 12.01pm it is half-lethal. (according to daddy. I suddenly I've got this feeling that I'm being lied to.) OHH! The name's Iguana!

*Dangerous* Perching on the statue of St Joseph

Went to Thai Express @ Jurong Point to eat lunch. and omgg, the shops are freakingg big!
Even though I went to Jurong Point during CNY to eat buffet at the Jap restaurant (Their revamped whole stretch of Jap restaurants at one part of the shopping mall! nicee~), I haven't explored this part yet. And there's a cake shop called Icing Room that lets you DIY cakes! So Emo Fam, let's go there to DIY bdae cake for Didi, Juon and Dabian!

Their green curry was BLISS :)
A little too hot after a while though o(>.<)o And their mango smoothie was creamy and smoooooth~

Our Strong Hippopotamus!

The rest of the day was spent on msn and on youtube. OOPS.
Watched many vids recommended by my friend :) Hanaa. Ya laa.

YOU ARE MY DISTRACTION. tskkk.

I HEART MY BUDDY BUDDIES!

2009-10-03T01:12:00.008+08:00

Just look at my tagboard, the consecutive names~ *beams* SARANGHAEEE!~~

Even though the outing tmr is cancelled, I am neither angry that I wasn't informed earlier, or upset about it :) Because my buddy buddies were so sweet ^^ When they heard that I had to lie to sneak out, and they cancelled it cos Duck souldn't make it, they three were giving me alternative plans to meet me tmr. Hahahaa! So cute.

DK asked me to go Woodlands Lib to study with her and friend (who's THE FRIEND ahh~)
Mel offered to meet me cos I said maybe I'll still sneak out and watch Fame alone
Zanne wanted to meet me to go Yishun Lib to study

Aaaww. Thanks a lot a lot. Very touched~ P
reviously because my classmates pangseh-ed me, I decided to watch Ice Age 3 alone but DK and Mel came to the rescue so until now, I haven't watched any movies in the cinema alone yet. Thanks oh!! ^^

Sigh I really want to meet them soon.
Bogoshippoyo!~ Heart Heart Hearts!

ARE YOU REMINDED OF MY SU XIANG GONG??
He used to sing that while we were dating~
Miss his "Wo Shi Xiao Xi" too and all the Jay Chou songs on guitar :'(

Anyway. I'M OVER HIM ALRD :)
Meet your new brother-in-law! ^^ Or buddy-in-law??

DK! DID YOU SEE MY HOU PENG YOO BEHIND HIM?? HAHAHAA. walaoo~

HE'S BETTER THAN THE ORIGINAL SINGER!! :D

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Sianzxz, Rosary session at Bertram's house tmr. Piggy. Will get to play with Brandon :) And catch up with the damn zai Kimberly. Wonder if Lucien would go. Ahhh I miss him much much, all the memories and laughter with Stace and Selina. And tmr's session is to pray for exams. The aunties would surely ask about my results.

Which. Aren't. Looking. Optimistic. At. The. Moment.
Dreadful horror at the though of it. Oh Emm GEE.

Dear Friend

2009-10-02T02:38:00.000+08:00

Dear friend I haven't heard from you in ages
I wonder how you're making out
Last time we talked I felt the space growing
Between us
I didn't think you'd go so far
Tell me how could you just vanish
Without giving me any reasons
What were you thinking
And does this all make sense to you?

It's hard when you don't say anything
When I gave you everything
And still you slip right through my fingers
It's hard when you don't say anything
Is this how you finish things?
Because to me, this doesn't feel like the end... dear friend

It's not like me to put my trust in somebody
But to you I gave it all
And if you'd asked me I would soften all your falls
But now it's me who's stumbling

Tell me how could you just vanish
Without giving me any reasons
What were you thinking?
And does this all make sense to you?

It's hard when you don't say anything
When I gave you everything
And still you slip right through my fingers
It's hard when you don't say anything
Is this how you finish things
Cause to me this doesn't feel like the end, Dear Friend.

press the reset.

2009-09-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

Sungmin's magic [cut]
He's freaking good! And he became more manly after 3jib ^^

Donghae's bowtie magic

Reset MV

I'm looking at you, only you.
Press the reset.

very very very messed up.

2009-09-27T22:22:00.007+08:00

I thought you understood that I'm not such a person.
If you believe others and don't trust me then from now on, let's not be friends.
Trust is my criteria for every friendship. I believe this person is a good person with a warm generous heart, I believe I can exchange my heart and sincerity with this person. You aren't that person.

I know I am not beautiful
Nor am I smart
Nor am I talented
Nor petite, nor slim, nor adorable.
That's why I put in extra effort in cherishing every friend that I have.

Had a quarrel. Slapped with sarcastic remarks.
Was told to check this friend's blog. Got a shock.
Told them not to do such things and got angry previously.
But they freaking just don't learn.
To make their lives interesting, they used me as entertainment.
If this is how you all treat your so-called friends then get the hell out of my life please, I don't want to be associated with such people.

And how I wish I've got the courage to tell that straight into your faces.

But I hate the hypocrite me who tries to endure and smile, laugh the matter off and talk to you all nicely face to face. Been there, done that, doesn't work. So tired with my own family already and now this. I don't want to talk or explain things anymore. Seriously. It's damn tiring. Don't even try and ask me anything. It irritates me more and I'm not in the appropriate state of mind. Get so pissed with everything I keep asking myself why am I even born in the first place.

Thanks to Daddy who brought up this point on my eighteenth birthday. Was so hurt by the thought that my presence was not appreciated and he chose to say it on my birthday. Wonderful. Now I see the meaning in your words. Because my so-called friends don't give a damn about me and use me for their own entertainment too. I despise myself because I know tomorrow I'll just be living life as a coward again. I hate myself. I can stand up to defend for others but why can't I defend for myself. Sucks.

I need to be alone by the seaside.

hyun bin + song hye gyo, kyuhyunnie!

2009-09-26T02:20:00.005+08:00

Aaaww~ Hyun Bin and Song Hye Gyo are dating! For real.
Oh man. Whatt is this. TSKK. And they came to Singapore on 12th September!
Never wish me Happy Birthday before they leave~ Lol who am I to them mans.

Anyway, they look sweet together!
Can't wait to watch the drama where their love started :)
It's called "World Within" ^^

Even though my life now is real sad sad depressing, shall not post it on my blog laa. Cos in years to come when I read my blog, this is a piece of memory I want to discard completely :)

Alright, change topic change topic! Let me show you my love ^^
Even though I found Jung Mo from Trax to be highly talented and me heart talented people but Kyuhyun top my list :) He may not the the most handsome but who cares mans~ Me lurve him o(^^)O And I iz jealouxzx of the people who lurve him too. Tsk tskk~

Nampyon! Thanks for everything! Sorry sorry~ >.<
Me really appreciate it duo duo, much much, to the maxx. :)
Komawo, Saranghae, Chaejayo!~

way back into lovee~

2009-09-18T23:11:00.003+08:00

I think I'm a very petty person, easily jealous and very selfish.

Because my parents promised a Chocz cake for my birthday and we'd celebrate today instead of tomorrow (there's retreat in school from 7am to 10pm). But time check: 8pm and they forgot. So I cheekily reminded them then they asked me to go online and find it myself. Felt a little disappointed. Am I petty? Shits, I think I am. Then when I happily showed them the list of cakes, my mum said "I think Jie Jie will like this"

But mummy. It's my 18th birthday and I'm your daughter too.

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I love all the people singing here :) Especially my KyuHae ^^

Tomorrow's retreat day. Shall be going all alone. Starting to dread it already.

Dear God, give me strength all the days of my life
And keep me pure and innocent in thought and in heart
With wisdom to discern between right and wrong,
To always remain faithful to your ways. Amen.

And now I shall reveal my Birthday Wishers list: *swings round and round in bliss* ^^

Before the midnight mark:
CLARA
1st to wish!
LOU-ANN
After the midnight mark:
FABIAN
1st right on midnight!
ZANNE
1st buddy buddy!
DUCK
not counted, twinnie replied my bdae wish for her
BENJAMIN
1st on msn!
BESSIE
1st pae classmate after midnight!
AMANDA
1st to refer me to a website full of cute Stitchs!
JUNYI
1st to call my phone
1st to sing 1 line of birthday song :)
JOLEEN

1st to send a patterned (?) sms!
MEL
1st to send korean words in a sms
1st to complain tt I'm not supposed to rank friends based on this

Okay okayy shall not rank my friends based on this laa. :)
But because I was quite depressed previously, just wanted to say thanks for brightening my day and giving me strength :) :) Komawo, chinguya! Saranghae~~

Will upload pics from my birthday celebrations too :)
Credits to my class peeps who planned outings, treats and presents for me ^^
Thank youu very very very much, I am touched. o(>.<)o

Kyuu's bed saga!

2009-09-09T21:21:00.006+08:00

Since Kyuhyun joined Super Junior in May 2006, the 13th member to the group of 12 who had released an album before he came, Kyuhyun last minute appearance left him to stay in the SuJu dormitory without a bed of his own.

8 months later, he still didnt have a bed of his own and news of Bedless Kyuhyun leaked out while he guested together with roomie Sungmin in Kangin's Chunji Radio show. Here is how the 'Bedless Kyu Hyun conversation' went:

CHUNJI RADIO, January 9, 2007
Translation credit to Lalaloo of soompi

kangin: oh yea so what happened to your bed?
kyuhyun: [says something, i don't really understand]
kangin: no but honestly, you like sleeping on the floor better. even your computer is all over the floor.
kyuhyun: no, i like the bed better.
kangin: okay come over today, i'll give you my bed. i'm saying this on air so this is a real promise.
kyuhyun: eeteuk already promised me two weeks ago that he'll buy me a bed.
kangin: that person is different from me. i bet you somewhere at this VERY MOMENT he's lying to another dongsaeng.
kyuhyun: no, i trust eeteuk. he's the leader, i don't think he would lie to a fellow member.
kangin: no, he does that sometimes. he's done it to me couple of times.
kyuhyun: i know, it's not just once or twice.
kangin: i used to share a room with him and he was like "kangin ah~ i couldn't sleep." so i was like, "why?" and he's like "cause i was too worried thinking about you"
kyuhyun: yea, right. [it was something else but it means the same thing]
kangin: EVERYDAY it's a lie.
kyuhyun: it's okay, i hope someday i'll get to sleep on top of a bed. For now I'll have to accept the fact that I'm a magnae. (youngest in the group = get bullied)
kangin: noo!! it's not cause you're the magnae~
sungmin: yea, it's not cause you're the magnae. We really want to buy you a bed but there's not enough room right now.
kangin: ahjummas (aunties) keep telling us to move, people/neighboors keep telling us to move~ so we were talking about buying it once we move..but we weren't sure.
kyuhyun: no it's okay, i'll accept the fact that i'm the magnae
kangin: IT'S NOT THAT!!!

Kyuhyun's famous Bed Song! ^^

He used SuJu's song "Believe" and composed his own bed song!
Subtitles are in the video itself, the yellow lines :)

(A Fan's comment on akirasberry @ Jan 14 2007, 07:36 AM)
this kyuhyun bed thing is going so far o.o
One time kangin came back from his schedule and found Kyuhyun sleeping in this dunkin donut tent LOL... they said he got upset when they threw it away..

Fans' photoshopped version of Kyuhyun in the tent HAHAHA

Late one night, Leader Teuk was woken up from his sleep cos he could hear Kyuhyun's voice. Eeteuk asks "Kyuhyun-ah, why are you crying?".

Eeteuk continues, asking "Are they airing a sad movie on OCN?"
Kyuhyun replies "Hy~ung~ This is so sad~"

The third panel shows a tv ad for a bed that costs 199,990 won (a little bit less than 200 dollars for a bed, which is fairly cheap). 'The ad says to call now for this great deal!'

And then lastly, Eeteuk is speaking to a hyung, prolly a manager hyung, saying "Hyung, we really need to get another bed for the dorm otherwise our magnae is going to run away from our dorm...."

He posted this pic at the Sukira (Super Junior Kiss The Radio) website for his fans to see his new bed and share his joy:

Then like a little kid, he gets a bed and starts sprawling all over =.="
Just that his bed is wedged in between 2 other beds cos there's no space :(
It was put between Teukie's and Ryeowook's beds because there probably no space at Donghae and Sungmin's room but judging from the photo, you'll see how they barely made the new bed fit in Teukie's and Wookie's room. hahaha.

But he's still very happy over it :) CUTEE.

KangIn Toilet Roll Qn!

2009-09-09T18:15:00.003+08:00

Friday’s Chun Bang Ji Chuk (Korean radio broadcast) was about
“How would you respond if someone smsed you saying…“
And today’s theme was “I’m in a public restroom but there’s no toilet paper”
So KangIn smsed a few people, telling them he’s in the toilet without the paper to see how they would respond…

He smses the Super Junior members.

SungMin called him instead of smsing him back… KangIn called him back so that the conversation could be heard on air. Sungmin’s the only nice one, he asked KangIn where he is and said that he’ll go over and bring KangIn the toilet paper. (lol!) But he was talking in the respective form to KangIn about half the time…(i thought they all speak lowered form to each other?)

Then he calls HeeChul… HeeChul’s ringback tone is “Chutcha" (only his part of the song where
Heechul's talking with his mouth full.)

*Hyung = junior's way of addressing a male senior eg brother
KangIn: Hyung, Im in trouble… (explains the situation…)
HeeChul: Hmm just let your “dung” dry (’dung’ = POO. LOL DISGUSTING HAHAHAHAHA)
KangIn: HYUNG!
KangIn: Hyung, Im not gonna leave here until you come. I’m gonna just stay here
HeeChul: Mm okay.
KangIn: What?
HeeChul: Mm okay.
KangIn: You’re telling me to just stay here?
HeeChul: I think MinSung hyung’s gonna go to you right now.
KangIn: No no hyung Im just joking. This is on air right now, this is a radio broadcast.
HeeChul: Oh its a radio broadcast? Oh… Dont even think about ever seeing me again.

Towards the end of the show, KangIn read all the text messages he received from the other members.

KyuHyun finished his schedule so he dropped by to visit KangIn… Then he received the text so KyuHyun took a roll of toilet paper and he went inside the chunji restroom looking for him … but of course KangIn wasnt there so he told KangIn…
“Hyung, I think someone sent me a prank text message.”
(AWW, he’s so innocent! he’s adorably cute. >.<)

Eeteuk : Oh is this for radio broadcast? How should i respond? (that guy is clever.)

DongHae: Hyung, don't worry. I'm your dongsaeng fishie DongHae. I’ll be there soon, just wait a little. (he’s cute too!) *dongsaeng = younger brother

Yesung: KangIn-ah, just flush the toilet down once…Then with the clean water that’s left afterwards, you can wash with that.

HAHAHAA. Super Junior's my favourite now :) :)
Hana Hanaa, Big Bang must be acknowledged. GDragon?? *wink winks*

Ohh! By the way, those comments in the brackets aren't made by me.
I koped this from the website Hahahaa ^^ Next would be Kyuhyun's Bed Saga :D

neorago

2009-09-06T11:49:00.017+08:00

It's You -Super Junior ^^
Evelyn Chen feels Loved :) :)

Recent song that keeps playing in my head, other than the sweet sweet "Marry U" :)
I'm gonna save up moneh and buy the Super Junior Super Show Concert DVD! Since I doubt anybody will be celebrating my birthday this year, I shall occupy my time and watch the DVD ^^ Will probably get busy after prelims, my niece's one month's coming exactly on the day of my last paper :)

Sigh, my family ah, went through so much headache planning for it. And although it's understandable how my Gor Gor and Da Sao wants to show off my little niece to the world but dont have to do things til this extent. Oh man. Booked a place at NUS to hold the one month banquet and my Gor even chartered a bus to shuttle guests from the MRT to the place. Like some mega event mans. Shockingg. Imagine a bus shuttling guests to and fro for 3 hours. Don't know what to wear lehh. Sigh. Shall fret about it next time...

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5th September 2009
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, SISTA-IN-LAWZXZ!~

During all the SAFRA trainings~

Shooting outing at ECP~

All the trips to SAFRA to train together for school team~

All the encouragement and experiences leading up to our success~
Plus all the talks and comforting when I wasn't representing school in competitions~

And becoming my beloved SISTER-IN-LAW ^^

Just wanted to say, Emo appreciates you presence
And same thing as always and always,
ME LOVE YOUU DUO DUO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (PS. Get married soon!)

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Went to Bishan Park for a picnic :)
But regretfully, didn't expect to go there so I didn't bring my camera. :(
And to make everything a surprise, my friend went to set up things there then meet me someplace else to go there again. SUPERB ACTING PLEASE. But I was in the wrong attire =.="

Then I got bored after chasing birds and dogs.
Oh myy Park I's dog park was really fun, wished Whistle was still with me :(
I'll force him to make friends with the other dogs even when he's so terrified. Hahahaa!

Bringing Whistle's toy bear he played with with he was young
Cos Xiao Xiao spoilt all his other toys :O
And this bear's already so pathetic without its nose :S

The scaredy doggie Whistle let Xiao Xiao take the bear

And he recognises his bear but he dare not take from Xiao Xiao
So he starts circling Xiao Xiao and eyeing his bear
So cute and shy! But he got bullied :(

Came to whine for help~

VICTORIOUS WITH THE BEAR

Went for dinner at Casuarina, near our place
And we didnt even realise it after living there for 12 years (?!)

It's a nice place inside :)
Pond too and a very big open area
Habitat for scrawny monkeys and bushy tail squirrels

Scary right, dont look too long, you might spot something you dont wanna see >.<

YES, EXTRAVAGANT DINNER AS ALWAYS :)
CRAB CRAB CHILLI CRAB!

But the crab's too ex (around $35, $40 for ONE)
maybe cos it's their specialty.
Darn nice though! Yummy-licious~

Memories of the past will become our scars for the future.

Philosophical?? :) Was wondering if I should continue all this meetings.
Cos we all know the eventual ending. Maybe shouldn't meet up that much.
I don't knooowww.

different viewpoints on the same situation

2009-09-01T02:48:00.000+08:00

"Listen" by Charice Pempengco (4th April 2009)

This Filipino girl is 15 years old ONLYY. wts, she sings damn well!

I will not regret my decision because the decision I made enabled me to keep my promise and gave me a chance for understanding.

Just that I feel very discouraged when the person I'm trying to help keeps putting me down, makes me feel rather uneasy and awkward at times too. But I continue to hold on to the hope that one day a sudden dawn of realisation upon on will lead us back to where we started from. I feel like such a failure already, so very helpless about the situation. Continually being cautious and tactful with my words have become quite tiring for me.

And to make matters worse, someone criticised me. Thanks uh. But I welcome criticisms, criticisms allow me to see another part of me that I've overlooked and if you look at it in another light, criticisms can be constructive suggestions for improvement. When I was criticised I was more disheartened and felt very innocently wronged, like my efforts make me seem like a loser (on top of being a failure). After thinking from that person's point of view, I really seem to be a loser. Am in a state of mild frustration that nobody understands me. "What about me?" Syndrome. Will get over this soon.

Three different viewpoints.

I told you this and I'm telling you again:
Even if the whole world is against me, I will stand by my principles and do what I deem is right. Concept of "What Would Jesus Do" :) Severely discouraged but will nonetheless persevere.

But then again if the whole world is against me, then there's obviously something wrong with me I suppose. Time to do a self-reflection exercise.

Or maybe everyone should do that. Walao the one who criticised me smsed me to ask how's my revision with a smiley face. Tskk, whatt is this~ Double nature of humans lehh, that's how "Freak of Nature" came to be. LOL.

Sometimes when we are busy pointing fingers to put the blame on other people, we fail to see that at least 3 fingers are pointing back at ourselves.

Happy Bubble ^^

2009-08-28T20:55:00.003+08:00

FREEEAAAKKK. Wasted one whole day and it's REALLY the whole day.
Shit. What happened to my discipline. Now I really can't finish revision.

Kyuhyun's version!

Donghae's version!

Watched all 5 episodes of Super Junior Mini Drama and OH EMM GEE. The first episode seriously freaked me out. Wts. Especially now that it's seventh month. :( The image is stuck in my head. Shits. Now I wont dare to stay up late but how to finish revision like that. SIGH.

And to make things worse, Lady Gaga's paparazzi is stuck in my head too. Jer, your singing doesn't help at all =.=" Thanks uh, taking up memory space in my brain when it's supposed to be for HISTORY CONTENT. Exam's monday and I've got a bad feeling. No fear at this moment worries me. No sense of urgency and too easily distracted are my flaws. Damn.

wishes do come true?

2009-08-22T23:41:00.004+08:00

Wishes when I was young: Sentosa's Underwater World and Snow City!

Since prelims' ending on 16th September for me, my birthday would be free from studying and I finally got an invitation from my friend (to Junyi, Ben and Becca: Hanaa, that's the same FRIEND laa =.=") to go there for celebrations.

BUT CJ HAD TO PUT ITS RETREAT RIGHT SMACK ON MY BDAE. :'(

Lucky we haven't booked the package to dive with the sharks yet, heard it's $120 per person but I won't be the one paying it :) :) Can dive with all the marine animals and it includes access and diving in the Dolphin Lagoon! ME LOVE DOLPHINS!

Sigh. I want to go, I want to go, I want to go.

Will probably go on my own then, gonna fulfill my childhood dream. Shall save money for the $24 entrance fee :) And then there's still a possible trip to Taiwan to save up for, if my buddy buddies still remember :S Plus I shall demand at least a Hongkong/ Thailand trip from my parents after As, Korea's highly impossible :'( Too far, my dad's fishes will mati. Sighh. Alright, I shall make myself feel better. Europe shall be my honeymoon trip so that I can use my hubby's money to pursue taitai dreams. Japan, we can bring our kids to the spring and Disneyland! ^^ Omg, whatt is this. Thinking too far and being too ambitious. Nobuddy will wanna marry me mans. Tskk~ Making-myself-feel-better programme: Failed. :(

Watch this! It's sooo cutee! A parody hahahahaa

Kibum and Heechul are on my list of favourites in Suju :)
Eui Chul looks so lost in this video! But he's got a model's build :)

Got new loves today, divulge one to you first :)

CUTEE RIGHTT. He's American-Thai. Oh myy.
CUAWT is da word, cute + hot! :) :) :)

FREAKK!

2009-08-18T20:36:00.002+08:00

Oh maaan. It was really sweet of the class to accompany me to the foyer and they waited with me for my parents' car to pick me up after school. Then you'd ask me why the class accompanied me. And my answer would be "They scare me with ghost stories first~~" Freeeaaakk. Tmr at midnight the "Gates" will open and "they" will happily skip out. OMG OMG OMG.

This whole freak-me-out-with-ghost-story thing started yesterday when DK sent me a sms saying the Festival is nearing. And I accidentally let out that I was scared of "floating objects". OHH! Suddenly remembered! Becca, Joshua, Junyi and I took bus to Toa Payoh MRT but when we girls alighted, I turned and wanted to wait for Joshua to catch up with us but then when I turned, OMG NOBODY. So Junyi said maybe he doesn't get off the bus and I waved as the bus drove by but I didn't see Joshua on it! OH MY TIAN. Then at break today, since Joshua was sitting beside me, I asked him about yesterday and GUESS WAD HE SAID.

HE SAID HE CAME DOWN THE BUS WITH US. OMG.

Then I decided I shan't sit near him anymore, apparently he has been so quiet since the day I've known him because he communicates with the "unseen". So he sits alone in class. Ken sits alone too and according to Josh, he is supposedly "not real" but I tested it already, I pinched him and it was painful so he must be a human. OH MAN.

Actually only wanted to blog one line for this post but now I'm quite frightened so need to release a little bit of this fear.

Jesus, I believe in You.
Jesus, I belong to You.
You're the reason that I breathe,
The reason that I sing,
With all I am.

Alright cooled off a little, now I shall blog that impactful line that Jer said to me today.
(Regarding my niece's photo - see last photo of the previous post)

"You enter this world crying and your loved ones looking upon you with smiles on their faces, caring for you meticulously. You leave this world with your loved ones crying and you'll be the one smiling in Heaven, watching and protecting them instead."

updates!

2009-08-18T00:11:00.015+08:00

Okayy no time to update for quite a while but many things have been happening so I'll just give a real short update, will compensate next time :) Be understandingg :D

BABY-SITTING FOR A DAY :)

She's cute rightt!!

But Whistle's scared of her
Hahahaa made me laugh, got a couple of vids on this :D

And she's so happy "Woh Woh" is scared of her~~

Having supper, she really eats a LOT

NATIONAL DAY FEAST ^^

Had two pizzas, 2 boxes of chicken wings, lemon tea and CHILLI CRAB.
OMG thaaat was sooooo heavenly. Especially when you're allergic to prawns and think you're allergic to crabs then you haven't touched any crab for AGES. :)

MUMMY HAD A SURGERY

On her "trigger finger" aka the middle finger, couldn't bend properly
Her specialist's some famous doctor who was an MP and has a sucky attitude
She should have gone to see my orthopaedic, he's so much nicer please..

MOUNT ALVERNIA FTW!

Bought daisies to wish her speedy recovery :)
Thanks Junyi for accompanying me to the florist
And watch the sian diao florist go about the shop~

MY FIRST BLOOD DONATION! o(>.<)o

Skipped GP to go for blood donation and the wait was super long.
The form said not to eat 3-4 hours prior to the donation so I didn't eat anything in the morning and by the time I got jabbed it's like 2pm. Ohh myy tian.

A lot of funny things happened.
Shall make some notes here so that I'll rmb later
(Junyi cnt donate, Ben and I skipped Counter 4 then cut T23's queue)

OH YAA AND THE PINK BAND HAHAHAHAA!

Ended up having blue black and a rash developed the next day cos of the band.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

THIS IS MY DARLING LITTLE NIECE.

Photo taken when she was just born and cleaned.

Isn't our princess gorgeous?
Have been very mesmerised by such small vulnerable life being born.
And I'll be watching this little life blossom into a beautiful adult in 20 over years to come, can you believe it? Like.. WOW.

While we marvel at a new life being brought to earth, we must not forget those who have been swept away by the typhoon in Taiwan and Philippines. Oh man, watched the Taiwan 6-hour donation drive on cable TV and cried. All the hope gone, all their loved ones lost. So poor thing.

motivation??

2009-08-06T01:42:00.000+08:00

TODAY: RELIGIOUS + STUNNED.

Oh myy. Today Stella suddenly turned back and said I'm her motivation.
Was quite pleasantly surprised until she said
"How come you can be like so carefree, dont need to do anything one ah?"

Walaoo, how to answer o(>.<)o
And it didn't sound like a compliment lor! *Stunned*
Then I replied a funny one "Erm need to ask God, He created me in his image.."
Religious nehh~

History Slingshot practices are such failures for me. I really should study for the next one. Even the Joshua who seldom speaks was amazed and he asked "You haven't started at all?" Oh man. Such few words can make me feel so bad.

For Lit there was an impromptu Lit Workshop which was supposed to be tomorrow. Yesterday Ms Yao smsed the other class (we're banded) but we didn't get the message. Stood up Lou once again. Sorriee~ Our class took our time for lunch after Slingshot and arrived at the Training Development Centre half an hour late. Then we had to split up into groups assigned beforehand and join the workshop which already started.

Latecomers who were assigned to group C were me, Joshua and Khartik(?) then my brain was going "Oh no. I'm not close to these two AT ALL~" Plus we joined Joseph who had the whole table to himself. Mehhh~ Awkward. But surprisingly we could get along. JAW DROP. Didn't expect the boys from 3 different classes to communicate to each other so well. Wasehh. AND for the VERY FIRST TIME in my life I heard Joshua speak so many words in a conversation/ discussion. Oh my goodness. *stunned* And I discovered Joseph could draw really well. *double stunned*

Joseph presenting his art masterpiece and or group's discussion..
We totally owned the other groups with the colours and drawings!

Poetry on death Hahaa but Joseph cartoonised it so well.

Maybe just that the lamb became a Billy goat. HAHAA!

The discussion was super entertaining, Joseph wrote the occasion of the poem to be "Lunch Special: LAMB BUFFET" for the crows HAHAHA (the crows supposed to feed off the lamb to signify the violent aspect of death) and he wrote that with a serous face. Wts.
Joshua was quite impressed when Khartik wrote the phrase "Silencing of the lamb" but we found out that he didn't know it was a movie. And when I suggested "Gone with the Wind", he didn't realise it was another famous movie too. Oh myy. So blur!

On a darker note, the first poem by Eberhart seem to portray the Crucifixion of Christ and the gory images used in the poem was rather disturbing. On the surface, the poem seem simple with short, easy English words. Ayeee, underestimated the poem.

And the time now's 5.49am, think I'll just go straight to school.
Dang. Havent done SGC and ASEAN nor have I revised Econs.
GG-fied.

St Anne's Feast Day!

2009-08-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

ST ANNE'S FEAST DAY!

Went to St Anne's church in Sengkang and parked the car in St Joseph's Convent beside the church. Then walked over :) Many people came so there weren't enough seats for everyone. Bumped into this super tall altarboy and he is freeeaaakingg tall! Even on tiptoe, the top of my head is still at his chest level, haven't even made it to shoulder level. OMGG. Whaaat is this!

Nearing the end of Mass, the procession starts...

Inside the church compound...

Statue of St Anne and Mary

prettay candlelights!
But you can't stand there to admire it for long, it's super duper uber warm. :(

Lost our way and drove around in circles.
Gor Gor drove there first then we arrived after.
Had dinner in Sakura, a Thai-Chinese restaurant at Compasspoint.

Jie Jie in a bowl Hahahaa!

OOPS.

I wonder how such heavy ornaments manage to hold up

Of course when we feast, our dog gets to feast too :)

It's afterall a FEAST day.

Hopeful and waiting for Jie Jie to bring him out for a walk~

Training in progress first

Mischievous doggie

When Daddy was watching his Taiwanese drama on Channel 8, oh man, we saw Whistle's cousin starring in it too! That one's called Ganbatte.

And his tail is visible unlike Whistle's.

Letting him out of his play-pen for a walk :)
Whistle looks darn cute here right!
Retardedd look Hahaa

Zombiee Doggiee

Meanwhile I was trying out my photography skills on flowers we brought home from St Anne's. It's a tradition to bring home flowers from a Saint's Feast Day I don't know why. It goes the same for St Joseph's Feast Day too.

I love how the top rose blossoms so beautifully

One of my favourites!

And another favourite!
I take this to be the best shot :)
Love the blurring of other objects in the background

And another one!
Totally love this shot. ^^
*SMUG*

colourful colourful!

Close-up of a white orchid :)
Had many tries before I can blur the background out
And I still don't know how I managed to take this :/

The nice nice rose again :)

Failed attempt, the background refused to blur out~

Whistle's like a human, he sleeps on his yellow pillow :)

Then he was soooooo adorable!
He slept so soundly that his head slipped off the pillow and banged the floor
Then he stunned and looked around and whined for help

Patted him twice then he went back to sleep.
Awwwww~

FOUND THIS IN DA FRIDGE.
KONNYAKU JELLY!
Muaha hahahaa!

sleeeeepyyy~

and since he realised I wasn't sleeping yet, he brought his tortoise to play with me despite him being so sleepy already. Sooooo cutee :D :D :D

Round Round eyes~~

Tug-of-war. :)

Was the dolphin yummy, Whistle?

Act cute.
BUT I LIKEE. :D

Hahaa, he just got this standard happy look

AND I LOVE THIS PICTURE. :)

Right. It's a reminder that you have spent quite some time looking through my blog instead of doing those tutorials you've piled up. STUDY NOWWW. Thanks for reading my blogg anyway :D

i know :)

2009-08-05T01:40:00.005+08:00

Let me indulge in cheena-ism again :)
Didn't notice it in March(?) when I was singing it with Pokpiang (Hahaa, mix of cheenapok and cheena piang) but this part of the song does make sense.
According to my understanding of it laa.

一切都是我
太過驕縱
以為你會懂
一直忘了說
我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然分開的理由
我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以即使到最後
還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我
才會在離開時
閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中
其實這份愛沒停過

To all who spy on my blog:
YOU ALL FREAK ME OUT~~~
Tag please. Scaryy bunch of people making my jaw drop. Lol.

Thought nobody's reading my blog then suddenly everyone's asking me the same question. Then before I explain anything, I became scandalised once more. =.="
AYEEEEE~ o(>.<)o

Have a super outdated draft on the first day of school to post :O
And also one more on St Anne's Feast Day.
That one's super image overload ttm. @.@

affected~

2009-08-01T14:28:00.002+08:00

I AM DOWN WITH FLU :(

Went home with Junyi ystd cos she was sick. Bought like.. 2 cups of bubble tea from her void deck :) Grape Italian Soda and Yam Milk Tea. Jer came to meet me after band prac and he brought Ed, Gene and James along too. Overwhelmingg please. Walked around AMK Hub and Ed tried on WOMEN'S SHOES because I was lamenting that I can't get shoes in Singapore, dont have my size. omggg. retardedd to the max. Quite awkward cos I didn't know the other two boys and I wanted to run away, felt so extra luh. Uncomfortable~ BUT I stayed on cos Jer was supposed to treat me a meal. :) Food maketh me. Fool maketh you. :D

Ordered a $6 Green Curry set but couldn't finish. Ed helped me to finish then when Jer commented that he was like a dog, it reminded me of my classmate Jarad HAHAHAA. Have been playing a "pet" game in class :) Previously when Whistle was sold away I was damn damn super depressed and Benjamin thought of Jarad as my new dog to console me. Yupp, so now he's my dogg :D Need to send him for training to curb his aggression and some grooming services too.

Going home, the atmosphere became rather reflective and quiet because of the person who walked me home. Oops. But it was nicee laa, managed to talk to a person about what's been happening to me lately. Some things cannot be put on the blog :) This person really understands me to the point that it freaks me out. Oh man. No wonder the horoscope says Pisces and Virgo are compatible. :O Yucks, okay I take back my words.

If I get so affected by one person maybe it would be better to cut this person out of my life. I don't think it's worth it worrying, thinking, sighing, being all depressed for this one person when I have the freedom to treat myself better. Anyway when I was most depressed this person didn't even bother. So it makes me such a fool that I'm constantly thinking of what might make him happy and how is he now. Tried to give up but I cant, even without contact nor seeing him for months I still think of him.

Time will teach me to gradually forget.
Eventually I will.

Anyway I have larger issues to deal with at hand. Nothing's going the way I want it to be :( At home or in school. Going crazy, crazy, gone.

If everyone's in a conflict and I have no one to turn to, I must be strong enough to gradually guide each one back to the way it was before. It may be lonely, it may be hard, I may be the only one left in this fight but I am not allowed to give up. When the world turns its back on you, tears you shed won't be of any use. If attitude is shown at you, swallow your tears for you must be strong. When people accuse you, question you, wrong you but by shouldering the blame you can make your friend's life easier. Why not? Even though it's quite hurtful that the rest doesnt trust me but if I can protect just that one friend I'm willing to do so.

366

2009-07-29T01:07:00.004+08:00

From Akai Ito Television Series..

Been searching everywhere for the translations for weeks now and I found it on Mel's blog. LOL, speak of so near yet so far.

366 Nichi

それでもいいそれでもいいと思える恋だった
戻れないと知ってても繋がっていたくて
初めてこんな気持ちになった
たまにしか会う事出来なくなって
口約束は当たり前
それでもいいから……

叶いもしないこの願い
あなたがまた私を好きになる
そんな儚い私の願い
今日もあなたに会いたい

それでもいいそれでもいいと思えた恋だった
いつしかあなたは会う事さえ拒んできて

一人になると考えてしまう
あの時私忘れたらよかったの?
でもこの涙が答えでしょう?
心に嘘はつけない

恐いくらい覚えているのあなたの匂いやしぐさや全てを
おかしいでしょう? そう言って笑ってよ
別れているのにあなたの事ばかり

恋がこんなに苦しいなんて恋がこんなに悲しいなんて
思わなかったの本気であなたを思って知った

恐いくらい覚えているのあなたの匂いやしぐさや全てを
おかしいでしょう? そう言って笑ってよ
別れているのにあなたの事ばかり

あなたは私の中の忘れられぬ人全て捧げた人
もう二度と戻れなくても
今はただあなた…あなたの事だけで
あなたの事ばかり

I'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this
Even though I knew you couldn't return, I want to be connected to you
It was the first time I felt this way
As time goes by we can still meet occasionally
Because verbal promises were natural
I'm fine with it as well

This wish of mine which won't come true anyway
That you would fall in love with me again
Such a transient wish of mine
Today I want to meet you again

I'm fine with it. it was a love that seems to be fine like this
Before I knew, you even refused to meet me

When I'm alone I start thinking
At that time, should I had rather forgotten (about you)?
But these tears are the answer, aren't they?
I can't lie to my heart

It's almost scary that I can remember your smell, your action and everything
“Weird, isn't it?”, please say so and laugh
Even though we're separated, it's nothing but you

I never thought that love would be so painful, that love would be so sad
I realized that I was serious about you

It's almost scary that I can remember your smell, your action and everything
“Weird, isn't it?”, please say so and laugh
Even though we're separated, it's nothing but you

You are someone inside me that I can't forget about, someone who offered me everything
Even if you can never return anymore
Right now it's only you, just you
Nothing but you

I dedicate this to someone.
But you won't ever know this song's for you.
Oh wells, here goes nothing~
(eeh? Sylvester's band name in Republic Poly: Here goes nothing. Hahaa)

shooting shirts

2009-07-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

Thinking of using my LiveJournal account but only people with LiveJournal can read my blog. And my last entry was 55 weeks ago! Oh my goodness. I still rmb I signed up for LJ to read Tania's blog. My One and Only friend on LJ. And I'm not sure how to use it too. So I'm still hesitating. Or maybe I should use Wordpress. Then again, friends cant save the pics directly from my blog. Sigh sighh.

Everyone's having quite a hard time now so there's practically no one I can talk to. Met Jer almost everyday for the past 2 weeks to talk then this week's a sharp contrast with only 1 day in common to meet. Quite boredd now. I need someone to talk to and amuse me~ Tension's been high everywhere. It must be hint hint from God that since there's no human to talk to, TALK TO GOD hahahaa. Shall try before I sleep tonight. :) And I'll remember to talk to him about my Work-Hard Buddy cos he's going through a rough patch. :)

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Sigh, I have to settle shooting shirts. It's really damn damn damn frustratingg. Don't know why I ended up collecting sizes, orders for the shirts and payment for them when I was only supposed to COME UP WITH THE DESIGN. Then now some refuse to pay and I'm not even close to them, how to tell them that it's a club thing and the shirts are already ready for collection.

I can't even collect the shirts now that they backed out, I am already forking out to pay for 6 shirts including the J3s' share and it's $54 okayy. Why must I sacrifice when I can use the money to watch movies, eat lunch etc. And then there're people who are so bloody inconsiderate who deliberately don't pay up on time or better still don't pay up at all. >:( Pardon my language. Yuheng's name suddenly floated into my mind. I think he got offended when I dropped the 10 cents change on the table and called him "stingy" then Fabian and Junyi said I was mean so I thought it through. It just naturally came out like that, I wasn't thinking much. As my good friend, I hoped you'd understand but seeing that my sms wasn't replied even days later and today you ignored me but said Hi to Junyi, I could already guess you're angry la. Sorry. (@.@)

Shooting club fund only allows me to pay for Coach's shirt (Aaron didn't want the shirt but his size fitted Coach so I let him do that but that day I was quite sad, kept thinking that maybe my design wasn't nice enough for shooters to be proud to wear out that's why so many didnt want. This dumb sense of inferiority's killing me.) so now what? Save another $18 and buy over the extra 2 shirts? Well done. 8 shirts. Congratulations Evelyn Chen, you brought yourself this mess.

Urghhh. I'm most angry with myself. o(>.<)o Who else to blame. I really fit into what the class calls as "Act can jia". Alright, no use whining over the situation. Get it over and done with. Freak this situation, taking up so much of my time and thoughts. Tomorrow will be another day when everyone shoot me with "When are we collecting our shirts?" BE STRONG, EVELYN CHEN. No one can help you but yourself. I am already expecting people to look at my design in disdain. (T^T)

"Yucks, why turn out like that?"
"Walao, this is damn ugly"
"Yaa! How to wear this out!"

Mental preparation downloading. Hopefully the colours turn out nice. Gold and silver are a bit tough to get on dri-fit shirts, they're usually on cotton ones. I'm predicting they changed the colours. :/ Oh man. This is such a nightmare.

2009 PTM

2009-07-25T17:14:00.019+08:00

Today is 2009 PTM Part II.

*Dang Dang Dang Daaangg*
Okay laa, it was just a repeat of the last PTM. With more focus on maths. OOPS.
I still find it quite hilarious at the idea that the whole class flunked maths though.
We ought to get some award, "Top Class in Consistency For Flunking Mathematics"
Even though I had small improvements but my results are still shitty-fied.
Darn it.

Went to shop shop with my mum at Novena then went to Bishan to see clothes and I bought a shirt/ blouse. Yayy, it's been a long time since I bought something :) Dabian gets to buy expensive clothes all the time from Forever 21, Dorothy Perkins etc at Vivo while poor me buys from neighbourhood shopping centres~ BOOHOO. Emo iz jealouxz. Sigh, that explains my standard outting attire, shirt + skirt :( Never mind, Belinda said she likes the way I wear them :D

Saw Adeline, Cheryl and Eve. Oh myy, they have really changed a lot. Mo grew out of her mushroom head and has long hair :O Eve's too, long alrd and they both straightened their hair. Wasehh. Nicee~ Shall try that next time. I need Daryl's "salon" and my "hairdresser", Gabriel first.

Sighh. Adeline they all were my besties in Sec 1 and 2, but then now we kind of drifted apart. It's really such a shame and pity I can't fit in with them anymore :( Though I really want to. Everyone has their one and only best friend to confide in but somehow I dont have one. Kind of envious of such people, like Yuheng's friends hang out with him since Sec 1 and even until now with different schools and everything, they still meet up frequently. So nice.

I sort of miss St Nicks' now. Never thought or bothered so much about such things before. Just being the goofy me who does what I like when I like and basking in everyone's laughter. Plus their laughter is genuine, that I really amused them and they enjoyed my company, not those kind of laugh at me cos they think I'm a joke or weird etc and not those kind of sarcastic ones too.
I miss my St Nicks life.

Yupp, took him out for a walk around the neighbourhood :)
He's exhausted in such a short time mans, lazy doggg~

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Yesterday was MEGA SAGA MAMA.
My laptop wire tripped my sister-in-law o(>.<)o
Oh man, nearly lost my little niece but she broke her fall in time before her chin landed on the top of Whistl'e play-pen. Wasehh if not the fence might have cut through her jaw. Even though it's blunt but the impact of it.. oh well, shall not dwell on it. She's got a bruise across her chest from it. (@.@)
I feel terribly horribly bad now. (T^T)

And then Whistle (YES HE'S BACK! YAYY!! made me cry for nights for nothing, cheat my feelinggs~) wee wee-ed on the floor and he whined for help. Kept whining and whining until I woke up from the sofa (fell asleep while watching tv) and went to grab toilet paper and plastic bag to clear up. He went to smell his wee wee and I thought he might lick it so I pushed his ear and he growled. Kept growling and being fierce so I froze in my position for 20 mins. BAD DOGGIE. When I stepped out of the play-pen and curled on the sofa, he stood and whined for help again but when I went near the pen he hurriedly ran to protect his wee wee. AIYO protect for whaaaatt. But his urine has specks of red, may be blood. See luh, keep all the wee wee inside, when go for walks then spray all over. Tsk tskk. Have to bring him to see a vet soon then~

WARNING: AGGRESSIVE.

That's why the new owners returned him to us, he protected his leash and wanted to bite the little girl when she tried to take it off him. AIYOOO~ Oh well, he learnt what I taught him and got sent back :) YAYY!~ Should teach him more naughty stuff to learn.

he left

2009-07-18T11:45:00.000+08:00

He's gone.

my very first ):

2009-07-17T18:38:00.005+08:00

The day started off with the most entertaining maths lecture :D

Firstly, Fabian asked Kriff about a song title and she said "Your butt is mine", which really is the song title but for those who don't know that there was such a song, it sounded super wrong :O So Fabian, Ben, Jarad, Queenie and I kept laughing and laughing when Fab annoyed Kriffith and he said "Okay okay, chill. I'll give you my butt okay. It's yours, just take it" OMG damn funny.

Secondly, Fab and Ben were making fun of Kriff to the max.
Fabian kept urging Kriffith to whack Ben cos he claims that Ben bastard her (internal class joke, no wait, more of a tease). "Orh hor, Kriffith! Ben bastard you lehh. Whack him!~ Whaaack him!~~" Fabian really distracted us and it caught Ms Lee's attention then Ms Lee called him to answer a question. So Fabian stunned then Ken Chew told him TWO so Fabian shouted TWO! with confidence when the question didn't even have a 2 inside LOL. Ken malu-ed Fab mans.

Then it was Ken's turn to be malu-ed.
At the quietest moment of the lecture, there was a loud "Proooooot~" which echoed through the lecture hall. All of us stunned until Fab exclaimed "OH MY GOD, KEN CHEW! YOU FARTED!" Ken quickly denied and tried to explain himself then Kriffith started laughing uncontrollably. And I got bad, not exactly bad, it's DEVASTATING news. I was seated in front of Ken Chew. Oh man. Fart at full force. Whaaat is this! So victimised please. (T^T)

During PE was funny too. While we harped on the fart issue, the class created a new "vulgarity" to be targeted at Ken. Instead of the normal, prevalent "F you", it will thus be changed to "Fart You" Hahaha Hahahaa! It's during these retarded times that I seem to love my class Hahahaa!

Near the end of the day, received an sms that contained depressing news.
It was very bad. Kept thinking about it then it made me teared.
Been going through a rough time on my own for the past few days but today confirms the case and I really really dislike the outcome of it.

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You were a pleasant surprise when I first saw you.
Since 29th September 2008, I have never stopped loving you.
But today will mark our last day together.

This whole freaking issue has been giving me a hell of a time for the past few days.
And it won't be any easier without you around.

Although I honestly hate this, I have no position to voice out anything.
Although I seriously dread this, I have to accept the decision made.
Although I really love you, I have to let you leave and send you away.

I hope that your days ahead will be filled with love and joy.
Don't be too upset when you realise the truth. It wasn't meant to turn out this way.
When you remember us, I hope you only remember the love and kindness we have for you.
I wish things would be better for you, that you will meet people who would love you as much as I do and that the whole family will accept you and love you as well.

This is where our fate ends.
But you know our love for you would never die.
Because somewhere deep down, you have touched us and we have subconsciously left a place for you in our hearts and in our memory.

Thank you for all the joy and laughter you've brought.
I love you, you know I really really do.

~29th September 2008 - 17th July 2009~

Super Junior!

2009-07-12T20:22:00.009+08:00

Been wasting my study time to watch a Japanese Drama and Korean variety shows. Oh man. I super duper uber love Super Junior, DBSK, SS501, Girls' Generation and SHINee now. Freeaaak. So hard to choose. I've been super enjoying this Korean variety show and no matter how many times I've watched it I still laugh as much. That's how funny it is (: Watch these!

If you have time to spare then watch from the start,
Super Junior's really cute and hilarious!
If you don't, then just skip to video number 3~

"Milky Skin, Kim Heechul!
We love you, Kim Heechul!"
Hankyung was really funny at the start, laughed like madness~
Oh yaa, DID I MENTION THAT HEECHUL ACTED IN "GOLDEN BRIDE"?!

Cross-dressing and a parody of Girls' Generation's new song Gee.
Seems like everyone made a parody of Gee Hahahaa~
Here's the full version, subbed in English :D

Clearer HD version with no subs, only has the Gee parody and Sorry Sorry dance :)
Heechul's really pretty! OMIGOSH~ I love him to the max in this vid, so cute and funny

Another parody of Gee, it's super gross man~
Subs in Chinese only though (>.<)

Okayy, now I shall return to watching my "Thread of Destiny", realised the movie really sifted out the main parts of the television series. Quite draggy but I want to know the ending, the movie's a cliffhanger, hopefully the TV series isn't or else I really bang my head against the wall.

God tied you and I together by your little fingers with a long red string.
This bond of destiny cannot be seen
And there is no map to you
So I will fall in love with you when I meet you

It is said that after a person is born,
He will meet approximately 30,000 people before he dies
Of those, the number of people you'll meet in school and at work is 3,000
And of those, you'll intimately know 300

Among all those encounters, it's said God has arranged a special one for you
One made from before you were born
However, that bond of fate is invisible to everyone
And yet that unseen person in your destiny is connected to you
By a red string on your pinky

That's why...
I fell in love with you the moment we met.

DK's bdae celeb! plus Mummy's too!

2009-07-12T06:26:00.005+08:00

WARNING: IMAGE OVERLOAD.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, DK!!
(=^▽^=)

May you stop growing any taller so that Zanne and I don't have to fight with you for fresher air :) And I hope you have a scandal soon cos now everyone knows mine (aaaish.) and I would like to make fun of you once in a while too (actually, make fun of you always Hahahaa!)

Thanks for being there when my friends pangseh-ed me and I wanted to watch movie alone.
Hahahaa therefore you and Mel saved my day! I'm super touched, xie xie ni mu-en! :D
Had fun bluffing and hiding from Duck and Ah Neh too HAHAHAA

Me loves you duo duo!
And so do the rest of us :)
*hits chest twice and points*

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5TH JULY 2009 SUNDAY

AP: "Ooops, sorry I don't have electric mixer lehh" :X
Zanne: "Should have gone to my house, we can make ice cream too, got new ice cream maker.."
AP EYES BIG BIG *shiny*

Decided to try out one small circle to see if it's successful..

Mixer of the Day: ZANNE

Showcased Masterpiece: Brown Brown Sticky Fragrant Choco Sludge

Dishwasher of the Day: MEL
Showcased Masterpiece: None. (All were re-used after washing)

Making the icing first since I forgot to pre-heat the oven (>_<;)

Look like ashes hoh!
DK, if you're eating your cake now, DON'T SPIT IT OUT!

"I stir,
and I Stir,
and I STIR STIR STIR!"

Lonely brown sludge sitting in his pancake home having a really hot sauna~

Icing's almost done!!~

Ta Daaa! The icing's done and the lonely sludge grew up! (not~)
It's another pan laa~

GAHHHHH!~
LOOKS SO TEMPTING RIGHT.
Smells super nice too!

This is the Mama Cake! ^^

And the Baby Cake!
Aka the lonely sludge after the sauna session

"Next, smear the icing as evenly as you can over the surface of the cake with a knife or spoon.
Audiences, please be reminded to watch over your kids if they are attempting it with a knife."

Lol, act like Cooking channel~

Jiang Jianggg!!~

Zanne: WE
AP: ♥
Mel: DK

:D :D :D

Let you admire it again :)
[The really choco version]
Chocolate cake plus chocolate icing plus white chocolate words :O
DK, remember to drink more water k!

Then we did colourful colourful "beads" over it! <3>

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.

YAY YAY YAYY! o(^-^)o

BOOOOO. T^T

HOR, zi pai without me lei~

Then I crashed in! :D

Supposedly an act cute pic.

Didnt plan properly and this is the result~
HOR I ODD ONE OUT AGAAAIN?
Lol I don't know why my pose so retarded.

♥. d. k.

♥. b. k. (?!)

And then my hand cramped~ =.="
So changed style~

♥. d. k. times three! :D
WHEEEEEEEEE~~~

♥ DK, ♥ DK, ♥ DK!

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6TH JULY 2009 MONDAY

HAPPY ___ BIRTHDAY, AH BUU! <3

Before that, let me continue the story from yesterday. Okay so today Mel, DK and I met up at AMK Hub to watch Thread of Destiny(Akai Ito 赤い糸). Here I must kneel, bow and kowtow to them to apologise cos I woke up late, like super late~ T^T Was watching Atashinchi No Danshi through the night and slept at 7am, you see. And the meeting time was 11.30am :X Plus AMK Hub near my house. @.@

I love the two main characters (≧∇≦) but then some parts of the plot v exaggerated. If I lost the opportunity to tell someone I liked him and if I assumed my best friend betrayed me by dating my love, I wouldn't jump off the building baa. Just poke their eyes will do wad. :O Kiddingg laa!

Sigh had a really nice plan to surprise DK but since I overslept, the plan is ruined.~ :(

ごめんなさい!

Met Zanne and went to K Box outside AMK Hub.
Whooo, the place quite run-down, the building's quite old already.
And outside there's a snookerium(?)

While DK and Mel went toilet, it gave me and Zanne a golden opportunity to lay the cake!

However, we were caught red-handed (> <) They came back too fast~ Tsk tsk.

Nice effect!

HORRR~

Shirt from India!
Dk, Mel and Duck bought it for me while they were in India for OCIP last year!
And there's still a pair of earrings, pink guitars (^_^)v
So nicee right! But I didnt get them anything from Batam (°□°;)

Cutting the cakeee~ :)
[sorry~ no candles~ :X]

Mel singing!
Waseh I couldn't differentiate whether the voice from the speakers was hers or the machine's.
COOLNESS.

Due to the video being corrupted, I can't open it at all.
Thank goodness, who'd want to see me dancing pleasee. *phew*~

Leaving K Box, GUESS WHO I SAW?!?

CHRISTINE AND JONATHAN :]
(Jon as photographer, he die die don't wanna take pic with us)

This two ah, confirm something going on already laa!
Jon sacrificed family outing to meet someone nearer his heart, you see!
He fever that's why our family outing cancelled but with his fever, he can still meet Christine!

Orh hor, Didi and Christine aah, keep the relationship from the family for waaad~ tsk tsk.

When's the wedding?? LOL.

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AT NIGHT...
(busy busy day for me~)

Went to Jumbo seafood restaurant in Serangoon Country Club for dinner with my mum's god-sister's family. And you know what?! My mum and her god-sis have the same birthday!
They've been godsisters since the dinosaur era and they didn't know they had the same birthday. Oh myy tian. Yupp, so I'm gg to repeat: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AH BUU!

Gabriel was our photographer~

Oh yaa, from afternoon's K Box, there was karaoke in the VIP rooms of the restaurant so the uncles were trying to force me to sing. Oh man. We got generation gap pleasee~ Sing waaaad?
Sianzxz of singing already, my throat wants to enjoy the food more~~ Of course must eat more right, so ex the food. I think 8 courses is over $700. Haven't add GST? Waseh, indigestion.

Ended up, Uncle ____(?) sang instead.
The one at the far right.
Shall post it up if I have the time, his voice is rich mans.

Gabriel in the photo now.
He's damn super zai to the max!
And he's only 21 with all his achievements. (O.O)

Okayy last group photo!

Went home and had another cake!
HAIYOOO.
But I bought this for Mummy, so I must eat :)

Pretending to cut the cake~
Mummy, you how old already~~
Still want to pretend~ Tsk tskk.

Answer: "OEI, don't put so many candles! Like very old leh! Put one can already laa!"
Reply: "Walao, Mummy, you want to act young~"

"I young at heart wad, cannot mehh"

Mum with act cute glance.

Mum with shy look.

Mum with authority

Making a wish~

Jie Jie played truant at the dinner~
Cutting the cake :)

My slice of the cake!

And I haven't poo poo-ed for like close to 7 days with all that food.
That's why I demand the PE Department to re-take my Height and Weight!
HURR HURR~ (T^T)

Jenny Jie Jie's Wedding!

2009-07-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

4th July 2009

~YONG HONG & JENNY~

Today marks the wedding of my most most most favourite cousin from my dad's side of the relative. Seeing her being married to be with her husband makes me a little sad because she won't be able to play with me during Chinese New Year anymore and my CNYs used to be happy cos she taught me how to draw and she played with me. Sigh sigh. Gone are the childhood times. Nonetheless, I'm glad she found someone who loves her wholeheartedly :D

At Church of Christ The King (My church!) :)

Their wedding booklet on top of my skirt :)

The theme for the wedding is summer floral and oh man, I went shopping with Becca and Junyi the day before and couldn't find any nice dresses. Becca ah, keep making me change into dresses. Tsk tsk. I don't wear dresses, seldom laa. Dresses look so weird on me. And I used to be a swimmer (don't laugh, it's true okayy!) so my shoulders are very broad :( For wedding I wore shirt and skirt Hahahaa quite a weird combi. You'll see later :)

See the small girl in front?? That's my little niece, the youngest one in her family. Her elder brother's Augustus and elder sis is Letitia. You'll meet them later. She's super cute right! Lol she scared until she went to find her mum and she cried in the end. But then ah, give her one sweet only she'll smile. Lol~

My nephew aka the bride's sister's son aka Augustus being the lector for the wedding :)
He's grown into such a charming boy luh!

Father Yim sneaky sneakyy~
He ah, never change his speech for weddings lehh. Last year for Gor Gor's wedding, he gave the same wedding gift and his jokes ah, all the same. Tsk tskk. He used the double language for a joke "I shall sentence you for life" Lol whateverr~ So for Gor Gor's, my catechist Celina's and my cousin Jenny's weddings, I've heard it at least thrice already.

As for his gift to the couple which is a set of praying hands, I think he bought them in bulk. :S
Priests don't have much money so must save. Their money largely goes to donations, you see.

Father Yim praying over them~
The altar boy in the background, I know his mum hahahaa okayy that was random. =.="

Exchanging of vows :)

"I will now declare you Man and Wife"

The Flower Boy and Girls :)
To the right is my niece, Augustus' sister, Letitia :D
There's another little sister but she ran off to ask her dad to carry her

I like this picture!
But Letitia's pose ah, a bit unglam :/

Letitia~
I rmb carrying her when she was a toddler.
Maaan, kids grow up fast, don't they?

Here's wad I wore laa.
Not really nice but at least my skirt fits the theme~

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At Marriott Hotel...

Okay, this boy is my nephew, he's 24 this year.
He married at 22, gave birth to a baby girl (see picture) at 23, now he's 24.
And he has to call me Yee Yee (which means auntie) so in other words, his daughter has to call me GRAND AUNTIE. Kanasai. I'm 2 generations behind time already, being the youngest in my generation.

Let me explain my Dad's side family tree. My Papa is the youngest and that boy's grandpa is the eldest brother of my Pa family = my Dua Pek (Eldest Uncle). He married in his mid-20s and the trend followed so my cousin's 50+ and he has 2 children one girl (25 years old) and one boy (the above). Of course I have many more cousins, my Dua Pek birthed.. 4 or 5 of them. Yupp and my Dua Pek stays with his eldest son's family so the 4 generations stay together.

Let me re-explain Daryl's relation to my family. Uncle John is the third uncle from my Pa's family and he married Auntie Hazel. Auntie Hazel's brother is Daryl's father. Get it??

Daryl = My father's brother's wife's brother's son. *breathe*

Jenny Jie Jie and Dua Um (wife of Dua Pek) + Her son (my cousin, my nephew's uncle)

To the right, is the bride's mum aka Dee Um = Second uncle's wife.

Due to domestic problems, Dee Pek and Uncle John didn't come for the wedding and Dua Pek's health isn't good so Dua Um and family came instead.

They are damn cute right!
They met at NUS Tennis Court and that's where they started Court-ing LOL
And if I remember correctly, he's her boss at work too. :O

Bored while waiting for the guests to arrive~

I was astounded by her beauty luh~
She didn't look like that last time. Wasehh I got hope too! Need to photoshop for mine though. :/

Another cute pic!

Not only did they engage the same wedding priest, the hotel was the same too.
Just that Gor Gor's wedding was a dinner, theirs is lunch.
So I kept getting Deja Vu~

Told you I was bored~
Hahaha hahahaa!

The waiter's back view look strangely familiar..
Like.. Aaron Thong's back view during History Night while he acted as Yeltsin!

They're so damn cute, the groom pulled out his red packet from his pocket instead of the speech then he was so embarrassed hahaha!~

Jenny Jie Jie too! She thanked so many people then she ended her speech thanking her husband with "Thank you, dear, for saving me from the nunnery" cuteness to the max!

Whoaaa, I didn't realise the groom looked at my camera :)

Me likezx thixz piczxz!
Letitia look like an angel watching over the blissful couple :D

Had a very fed-up lunch which I endured while everyone kept comparing me to my skinny sister and I was put on the defensive, explaining that she deliberately starve herself and refuse to eat meat plus use slimming lotion etc (much to my sister's glare).

Then she shot me back. Made me almost end up in tears. My parents also. Total biasedness to that extent. I seriously cannot take it. So I played rebel, I didnt eat the noodles in my bowl to show my father when I said I was full, I meant it. Everyone just assumed since I was bigger-sized my tummy would be bigger and I'm more greedy so I should eat up the remains which everyone didnt want. Excuse me? I have my pride too okayy. Although I play clown and try to get everyone laughing by acting like I'm some glutton motivated by food. Then everyone thinks I'm very open-minded and pry too much into my sensitivity. Treat me like some dustbin. Eat the remains. DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING DOG TO YOU.

My cousin was more understanding and sensitive to my feelings so she was trying to pacify me through jokes. Oh man without her I could have cried already. I love you, Bamboo~ Skinny with a heart unlike the rest.

Last highlight of the wedding lunch is the Yum Teh where the bridal couple are to show respect to the elders and offer them tea...

Then we went home and I voiced out to my parents that they were very mean during the lunch. My policy is, any unhappiness must vice out straightaway, if not the other parties involved would take you for granted and you'd be suffering alone eventually. Anyway voicing it out is much healthier than bottling them up.

Cried while voicing out :/
Pretended to look out of the window when my Pa peeped at me using the mirror.
Then I took this~ Turned out pretty nice :)

Brought this home from the Church wedding~

My heels from Primary 5 Christmas Eve when I first sang in the Church Choir.
Took the very first Family photo after Christmas Eve mass that day

Cherish.

Ardor.
I guess it means Adore.

Finished the post! Sigh I feel damn sad now. Reminded of the lunch. Never mind I shall slim down all ye who belittle me. And I learnt something too, when I grow up, I'll learn from my cousin and be sensitive to others, I'd learn when to tease and when to stop when there's excessive teasing. Because excessive teasing is when hurt would be inflicted on the person.

Even though those adults were so insensitive, at least they taught me something and through their criticisms, I see my flaws. And I shall work on them. So from now on, even though criticims get really harsh and I'm super pissed/ angry/ depressed, I shall control myself and be more willing to listen to them and change accordingly if it's constructive comments. YEAH :)

I can't move on from the past

2009-06-25T03:54:00.005+08:00

Had a nice chat over msn with Zanne today. Oh maaan. These days nobody talks to me on msn anymore, so sad right. Did a lot of catching up and I spilled my secrets out to this girl. Haiyoo. Made an evaluation and decided I feel very retarded over the issue. But what to do, I am still struggling to get over it. Can you believe it.

I don't know how it began but I know I was quite reluctant to end it. I typed each word on my phone with a heavy heart, trying to explain this outcome. Then I retreated. I needed time to think. When our last argument broke, it wasn't a heated one, it was simply a game of ignorance, making it clear that you were avoiding me. Even until today I still feel wronged, you were unreasonable and too much swayed by the people around you. Maybe one day when I have enough courage to face you again, I'll share with you a tale of how someone was eventually moved by your sweet actions and gradually made so comfortable in your presence that trust was put in you. Just that this trust was breached and never again reciprocated.

I started saying I need to forget this but somehow half a year gone by and I still can't so might as well I face it instead of trying to avoid the problem.

Well you're the closest thing I have,
To bring up in a conversation
About a love that didn't last
But I could never call you mine,
Cause I could never call myself yours.
And if we were really meant to be,
Well then we've just defied destiny,
It's not that our love died
Just never really bloomed

Well I can't let go,
No I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.

And then we saw our paths diverge
And I guess I felt okay about it.
Until you got with another man,
And then I couldn't understand
Why it bothered me so.
No we didn't die we just
Never had a chance to grow.

I can't let go,
No I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me back

And it might not make much sense
To you or any of my friends
But somehow still you affect the things I do
And you can't lose what you never had
I don't understand why I feel sad
Everytime I see you out with someone new

I can't let go, no I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.

I can't let go, no I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me
Holding me

And still I can't comprehend, why it bothered me so.
Getting worked up over trivial matters and being so sensitive.
Without deliberation, you've transformed me into someone I wasn't.
The opposite of Love is not Hate, it is

Indifference.

Butterfly~

2009-06-21T04:47:00.000+08:00

The Story of the Butterfly

One day, a small opening opened on a cocoon; a man sat and watched for the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to free its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gone as far as it could and it could not go any further.

So the man decided to help the butterfly; he took a pair of scissors and opened the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a withered body. It was tiny and had shrivelled wings.

The man continued to watch because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would open, enlarge and expand, to be able to support the butterfly's body, and become firm. Neither happened; in fact the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a withered body and shrivelled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man in his kindness and goodwill did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggling required for the butterfly to emerge through the tiny opening was God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings, so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved in freeing itself from the cocoon.

Similarly, I guess struggles we face in life are there for a reason too. Let us keep working hard at it, and one day, may we emerge like a healthy and beautiful butterfly! No one said life was always going to be easy and smooth-sailing, but the struggles we go through have meaning too, and are there to help us grow. Life is beautiful, treasure life! Even the tough times where it is just so easy to grow weary.

Justin sent an email in an attempt to find donors for B blood; a 5 year old Singaporean boy Berney needs a transfusion fast and the blood bank is empty of the rare B blood. At least 10 donors are needed and even with 10, their blood need to be screened to be healthy to enable transfusion. Attached to the email is this story which I found to be relevant to me. Oh man, the sudden urge to read Justin's email sent months ago in April and also this story at this ungodly hour must be some kind of God's message for me to choose to struggle with my revision cos now I lack the motivation to study and I'm weary of it all.

Maybe Justin's been praying that I'll remember his birthday and his prayer was answered. Yes, July 2nd. I will remember to sms you, old friend. Oh myy, I miss smsing you and receiving your smses at 4am when your biological clock wakes you up. And those times when you used your super pro (to the swakoo me at that time) laptop with the magic pen to write on the screen, those Chemistry balancing of equations which I super sucked in. Don't be too AA in school though, heard comments about you through my friends (: Study hard for MYEs, I still have high hopes in you and hope you achieve your dream, though it seems impossible cos it's such a noble aspiration but there's always hope :)

Let's be butterflies.

Emerging out of the turmoil with enriched souls and beautiful dreams.

(Anti-climax: Butterflies but not the Liang Shan Bo and Zhu Ying Tai ones please.)

my wish :)

2009-06-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

Yupp, I guess this is your wish for her.

So sorry I haven't been understanding enough to hear you out today and even threw a tantrum. But at that point in time, your words were super hurtful and I couldn't just sit there and cry. Then when I thought it through, I felt since you were having a really rough time I really should have been more thoughtful to be there to hear you out. Hope you'll feel better in time. Meet up soon, even though I left the band :) And no band meetings please, too overwhelming for me to handle. If there's anything, I'm always contactable :) Even though we aren't exactly very close, Crackhead loves you! Cheerup k :)